A Nugget of Truth

Here I am feeling like this and somehow trying to put them into words.. Something inside me made me realize something.. I know it sounds weird or whatever you think it is.. But yeaa I realize something and Im not entirely happy about it. This happened after watching Remember Me and reading The Lovely Bones.. I was sitting on the corner of my bed thinking about death. Yes DEATH!! Do you fear death?? What happens after death?? I mean I know theres heaven and hell but at the same time would you be able to look down on Earth and see how everyone evolves after you passed awat??? How would everyone feel??? Would they miss you?? Or would they continue life as if you never existed. I think when I die, I'll miss Earth . I'll miss everyone I know.. I'll miss my family . My friends. The memories. Everything!!! Alice Sebold wrote an incredible novel about life after death and life before death. A job well down my lady. Like the movie, Remember Me, is it possible when everything was falling into place could end at that time??? Tyler Hawkins died when everyone around him seem to be back to normal again. Then when he died??? It just hard to believe that you can just leave everything behind just like that. Its even harder for the ones who watch you go to move on.. Right?? Would things be like how it used to be on earth in heaven?? Would my mother still be my mother in heaven??? Well thats something for me to find out. That's if I make to heaven. I hate All Souls Day!!! It just reminds me of the loved ones who passed already.. Recently I passed by a place where this someone I loved so much died.. I was in the car. I wlook around and everyone seems to be qube quiet. I miss my uncle.. I never really mourn properly when he passed. I miss him dearly. Thats one of the reasons I hate All Souls Day. i hope when I die that I'll still be remembered. That people would still come to my grave and think of me. Until the day comes.. i will know.