Sofea and I were talking and reminiscing about life and the people revolving aroung us. How things are going to change,How people start to take responsibility,How time passes by so fast. Basically we talked about things we realized. I've been wanting to blog about something like this for quite some time but I havent found the right words to say. Even now as Im typing it all down it doesnt seem right.
Think about it. Now we're Form 4. Its basically half the year 2010 already. Next year we have SPM. Then the results we get will determine our future. The thing is, I dont know what's my future going to be like. Who does?? Im scard of the future. What it'll bring, happiness, sorrow?? IDK. I dont even know what I want to be right now. I am ambition-less. Everyone's been asking me about what I wanna be. I guess its that time of life where all the adults are curious about you. Im stcu in th in betweens. Im stuck in the middle. Decisions. I dont know what I want but I know I want to be on the right track. I want to know where Im going. Right now I dont know where I stand. What happens if I choose the wrong thing? The wrong choice.
Can I turn back? what if I dont do well at all? Okay Im just saying,but what if. And what if suddenly Im not here anymore? Would people still remember me? Well I dont think I left an impact on people's lives anyway. Well yea I mean Im just weird. Too weird.
LOL out of topic. Aite imagine we'll all be in college. This time knowing what we want to be I suppose. Then along the way what happens if we loose each other?? My friends?? What if we'll never met again? I dont want that to happen. Yea we'll meet new people. But I still want all of us together:) Dont leave me okay?? :) I know one thing's for sure. I'll miss you peeps:') Back to the topic. One day from university/college life we'll move up to work life. Imagine having your own car. Your own money. Your own apartment. Your own life alone technically. Its the time we discover things on our own. Like how our parents did.
Slowly in life,we'll have bills to pay. What?? Electricity bills,phone bills,water bills,house bills?? Credit card bills!! Buy our own groceries. Plus now that I have Hayley? I'll have to take care of her. Theres just one thing I want right now. With the right choice, I want to be able to wake up everyday and go to work with a smile on my face. I want to love my job. Wont it be great to get a job you love? The problem right now is that I dont know what I want. I mean as a headstart so I can do well in school to get the job I want la. Its okay if I dont know what I want now. I just have to know what I want when the time is right.
But if its possible, I just want to be a kid forever. Then maybe I'll just worry about monsters and boogeymans.
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