Media Camp :')

I tend to drift away a lot and yeaaah I know it annoys people at times. Sorry? yeah sorry. Anyways I just woke up from my little nap after a 3 day 2 night camp: Media Camp. Needed to put this down into words.

Honestly? I didnt had the mood at all to go for camp. Well I did and then I lost it. But I'll tell you now, I've openned up eyes and realized a few things. Well everyone did but ofcourse things work differently in their minds. Everyone learned something. I remembered the first night. Seriously I couldnt sleep at all. At all. I was just thinking and I couldnt stop. Trust me they werent the things you'd think is I'd even come across. 3 days was good enough for me to realize I need to make a change.

Esther :) was my roomie. We did some pretty weird stuff in our room. LOL dont get the wrong idea. We talked and talked about things. Well yeah. Anyways we did some sort of activity on Saturday about choosing a picture that Mr.Augustine got us. and the picture we choose was suppose to represent what we are.

Right now?? The picture above represents me. Probably this picture may mean a different thing to you but to me? It shows that I am constantly thinking. You know I always secondthought about myself. Trust me its not a thing you'd want to take up. It brings you down. Most of the time it brings me down. I used to open up to my girls. You know who you are. I dont anymore. Everythings always kept inside. EVERYTHING. I keep them to myself so often that I cant even push myself to talk about it anymore, even when someone asks me right in the face? I'll probably tell you Im okay. Somehow? I managed to tell a little someone something real deep. Okay fine-.- I told me roomie laaaa. haha. Thanks Es for being there when I didnt know who to go to. Now I know I need to 'Let Go' and let fate decide.

I cant wait for Confirmation Camp now:) Had real fun with Esther,Sonia,Elysia,Judy,Nat,Azell,Marsha,Samantha,Calvin,Ezra,Brendan,Daryl,Julian,Aron,

Gabriel and the rest. I LOVE YOU GUYS:')

The productions for the team I was in turned out AWESOME. After our downfall, we still managed to bring something to the table on such a small amount of time. The part where everyone was like hugging and crying cuz everything was ending? awwwh I'll never forget that and yeah my mom :')

I've got so much more to say but I cant describe it. All I know is that 'it was worth it'. I'll never forget what happened. I'll never forget.