I see you shine in your way. Go on, go on, go on

I remember having a great weekend after Maroon 5 and that Monday too. Pretty much told myself to keep my mind clean and clear until school starts all over again. It did. This week was tough but it was good enough to keep me going. If I were how I was last year at this point of time, I would have probably gone into depression. Yeah most probably. I often go up to them and ask them how they do it? I keep hearing the same stuff and I get tired of hearing those words. Often I question God when do I start feeling the way they did or will I? Because all I keep getting myself into is frustrations and dissapointments. Im not saying its them or anything, its just, Its probably my fault for not handling things the way the rest did. Leadership? Where is it? Have I lost it?

I realized how much I've been questioning myself. Then again, I put that aside because, yeah they're only my negative thoughts. Thoughts like that, tend to push you down and make you think things that are probably not as how they seem to be.

That Wednesday, I sat down, thinking what else is there to make it right? Hui Min came over . Told me to just look at the Altos. As we were observing them, girls, she brought me back to when I was in Form 1. Back then, and look at us now. We're the ones standing here and making decisions for everyone. We're the ones teaching them. We're the ones, They look up to. Where we are now, is where our past seniors were at. They've gone through the same path. Bad days and good days. If they could do it, why cant we?

Until this very day, Im still here, standing strong (not crying like a baby I mean) and trying my very best to make it the best for everyone else. Trying my very best to keep them girls together as a family.Trying my best to make sure, that this year's Form 5s are going to be the girls that the rest of the little ones will still talk about and miss once we're out of that school gate for real.

These past few days, I had a talk with each and every single one of them. Finally put my *yoda skills* to good use and well yeah in the process of doing so, 3 of them cried. It wasnt because of me scolding them? Because I know didnt scold them. Instead I told them to cry off their stressness away.

'Honey dear, I dont know how? But I see it in you. You keep seeing yourself as a somebody who's at the bottom. DONT. Believe in yourself like how I believe in you. You're amazing. Dont care what others think, dudeee all YOU need is to believe in yourself. Take a deep breathe and start believing.'

Today's performance, was okay. One more week to go and who knows, maybe after that, we'll have more to come.

After today, Joyce, Im starting to understand what you were trying to tell me. Really I am.

I see the light now.

#thingsarelookingup

Tomorrow's just another day. Heck no its THE DAY :)