All I know I still got mountains to climb on my own.

Okay so heres my outcome.

Been in a mode for quite sometime.

Well its a Fran thing.

Gradually I stopped.

I did. I found ways to push these things aside.

But then, knowing me, I'd start up again.

Its early June now right? So probably a month or so, I realized

me pushing things aside would build up another something.

LOL I am such a complicated individual.

To you, maybe not? But at least I think I am.

Im the kindof person where I think stuff.

Cry about it and I wont tell anyone.

Not because of anything really. I just dont have the mood to explain it all

over again. So I close up. My little friend Sofea, would know the drill.

She never asked what, she always gave in on what to do about it.

Somehow, it'll fit in just right to make me normal just for a while.

Like you said, no one can change the way you feel except YOU.

Thanks sof.

Anyways, my normal routine.

When in doubt.

Stay up late and either watch The Final Riot! or seasons of

any TV series. Grey's Anatomy, always was the

best choice. Then I'd be okay again.

People always worry for me. Always.

Sometimes yes, I worry about myself but really?

Most of the time, no matter what state Im in, no

matter how bad it is. Honestly, the last thing I would worry about, is myself.

I know I always frown everywhere I'd go.

People always ask.

As usual, I wont say anything.

I know I complain a lot. Well because those are my general thoughts.

I complain and it may seemed as though I dont appreciate people or things

around me. But heck no, although I complain, it doesnt mean I mean what I say.

If you dont know me, then you wont know.

I do appreciate.

When I frown, deep down in my thoughts I do say thank you Jesus.

and sometimes, just by a random reason, if anyone were to

pass by in front of me and if I were to be in my thinking mode,

for some reason, I'd pray over that person.

As I watch everyone around me.

I see people. Unhappy ones and happy ones.

I pray for them.

Yea yea who am I to judge. Admit it, we all judge people dont we?

As much as I hate the word 'judge' I know I judge too.

Damn you Fran, Im a little lost on what Im blogging about.

I confuse myself a hell lot. But its okayh.

Though I say I hate this attitude of mine, I gotta admit it,

I find it kinda funny as much as it annoys me.

Blogging this bit of me doesnt make you think you'd know everything about me okay?

Its just another tiny bit of the every so complicated Fran.

As much as I hate feeling like this on days to come? Damn its good for me in a way too.

The moment I woke up this morning, I knew what was coming for me.

Right at the same time, I knew that by the end of my night, before I'd sleep,

I'd realize again and I'd laugh at myself for realizing YES I AM STUPID.

Oh yes, I bet whoever's reading this particular post, well if theres ever anyone who reads it I mean. HAHAHA I think people would think Im on the verge of being crazy. Trust me,

I once thought I was too. But damn man, this is part of me. LOL Im crazy.

Seriously, I think Im scary. Well, today Im sure.

I know a little part of what Fran is. I know what my thoughts can do to me.

I know how to push them aside. I know how to conquer them.

and no matter how bad things are for me which, no one would know

because I dont tell anyone anything anyways, I'll be okay.

By the end of the day after I come out of my shell, I'll laugh at myself

realizing things. I learn a new something about me everytime shit happens.

Its life. Shit happens.

But dude, I know havent experienced life. So yeah dont tell me

'this is just a small part, wait till you're done with college, thats life'.

Um hello? I know I havent experienced life yet. I know what you're trying to tell me. But really,

I know what you're trying to say and I know how immature I can be with my thoughts. Dont

give me advices unless I know, you know I need them. All I need is for you or whoever to

listen when I do feel like saying something.

People always say that if a girl say she's okay means she's not okay.

Well, Im the kind where okay wait, Im a girl too. So sometimes when I say Im okay, Im not

okay. But sometimes when I say, Im okay, Really I am okay.

So dont worry about me. Im good.

I feel guilty for people who worry but at the same time, hey at least they're thinking

about me right? LOL

Anyways, its 6.10 am so its a Wednesday.

Im suppose to be waking up in an hour or so.

But Im still up and yes, Im wide awake.

Grr Im in a desperate urge to go out and watch a movie.

pssh jealous of everyone I am.

Before school reopens, IDC how? I HAVE to go out and watch at least something.

Dont judge me please, I know Im weird and Im smiling about it.

See? Im losing it. Hahah

Hey Im okay.