Been doing things together eversince we were kids. Finally realizing that hey, we are growing up. This is his time now, to go back home in New Jersey and pursue his dreams. Its obvious that he'll be back. We await for your return.
So its been a pretty busy week I'd say. It wasnt much of time spent with him but it was good quality time. I remember bringing up the topic on him leaving, He'd hit me and say lets not make this any harder for any of us. I know I know people are like He's only leaving its not like you wont see him anymore. I get it lah okay but its not that. Its something else.
Another thing was that. He left not telling me about something and it can only be him who's suppose to tell me. How am I suppose to help push the other fella up when you're not around this time huh? I cant do this alone Sean. You know how much I need you in this. But I know, things are going to be okay for him, you said so. Things will turn out okay. Takes time.
Last night's sleepover was more of just being together and just talking. I know for sure as much as Darian wont admit it, he'll miss you so much and Jeffrey's going to need to cope with not having you around. Frederick? Well, him too. Then theres me. It had always been the five of us. It was a thing in this family "oh those five monkeys".
The send off got Everyone crying. I could see it in Ah Pak's eyes he just didnt want to do it infront of Sean. Mom said he let it all out in the car on the way back to 494. Halfway doing our flash mob prank in the middle of the airport, my mom comes in crying on Sean's shoulders and that made me started and did not stop. Breakfast was quiet for some of us.
They got into customs. Waved and yelled out our I love yous and goodbyes.
The drive home with Jeff and Fred was nothing but silence and tears.
"Fran, right now its the three of us and until Darian comes back, it'll be slightly better okay"
"Okay gorr". Then out of no where, the radio played Dont Worry Be Happy by Bobby McFerrin and the three of us just smiled at each other.
I think thats probably it for now. Yes, its going to be okay.
Im missing you already Sean. Much love from me and everyone left here.
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