and Im on my way to believing

They're singing this on Glee Season 2 :') not them but Rachel. Watched a few of this and that, I've gotta say Im pretty amazed at what they did for the second episode (Brittany/Britney). No spoilers, just saying. I used to love listening to Britney Spears. Not now now, but way back then. Yeah this episode's got me going back to last time. Hahaha I cant believe I used to go gaga for her songs. She was good.

#nowplaying The Only Exception-Paramore

*cant wait for 19 Oct :)

I am short on words knowing whats occurd.

I'd love to go somewhere and just jump and shout it all out now. Eeekk the beach would be nice:)
Anyways I dont exactly know why Im like that in class now. I'd pity my deskmate cuz she's like beside me all the time. Today,I totally blew out my BM. I cant even lift my pen up and write down what others are writing.
Anyways, I've been doing this and that now. I think thats good. For me at least.


#nowplaying Ungodly Hour-The Fray

#nowplaying Nineteen-Tegan and Sara

Cant sleep -.- I've been listening to some songs over and over again. I cant sleep. Shucks.

Today's lesson : Injustice

True that.

Weekends are always my best.

Jie's place.

Yeah he's 5 and he plays Counter Strike.
Happy Belated Birthday Jie :)

Forget the things we swore we meant

Here we go again.

With all the things we said and not a minute spent.

To think that we'd regret so we just take em back.

These words and hold breath.

Forget the things we swore we meant.

#nowplaying Here We Go Again

and she's a little older now

Happy Birthday Jenna Jie :)
ILY :')

a song can mean so much

Went through some songs tonight.

Amazing how they brought memories back.

Just like that.

I remember everything.

Some painful onces.

Some makes you slap yourself and go back to reality.

Some just makes you realize your mistakes.

Some just realizing what you've got now.

Tonight a new memory was created.

And it was a mixture of it all.

In one song.

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket

I think you got a glimpse of something that most people dont get to see.

qwertyuiop LOL

You'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So Im not moving.

Looking Up :')

I still love swings.

I like flying.

I mean the feeling of being up near the skies.

Always tell people how much I love the skies.

In the car on my way to places.

I'll always notice the colour of the skies.

Everytime.

It calms me down.

I think its one of God's best creation.

Honestly I think it is :)

How I Met Your Mother :)

someone told me rain never rains forever.

Pictures mean a thousand words.

Time's passing by so fast. I dont like it. I always tell myself to cherish the moments

I find really treasureable. Little things.

I probably see things differently. My own perspective.

But sometimes being to observant or noticing things to much

can hurt. I've been pretty caught up in my own thoughts these days.

Negative thoughts and positive ones.

Im going to miss you all :')

ALL

For some of you, I may not open up. Okay I do?

IDK. No offence, its just me being like that.

I dont talk much to yall because I practiced that for too long.

I've been doing it over and over until I cant even

stop myself from doing it.

From my side? Its nice to talk to someone. yeah.

But I dont know why I just dont talk.

A little text, I thank you.

Noticed I always talk about family? Well thats because they're the ones

I tell everything.

And I thank God for that.

Dear? I know I havent been there for you lately. With everything happening for you.

Like I told you before, I see you. IMY you though.

*cyber hug*

I remember telling someone that I see what he/she is going through. Well it always ends

up in making him/her feeling really surprised that I noticed that part of him/her.

And they always ask me how do I know.

I cant explain it. Its just the way I look at people and then

noticing something in them. I dont know how I do it? But its like

I feel it. Dont get it right? I dont expect you to. Its just the way I see things

a little different.

Seriously, I noticed how much a person a can be so important in

your life. This person? she's important to me.

I cant find words to say how much Im grateful to her.

All this time,did I just noticed?

I am so grateful.

You're always there. Ever since the start.

ILY

One thing I love about my flashbacks are my childhood.

Talks about childhood tonight really brought up some memories:')

The reason why my cousins mean so much to me is because well

I spent too much time with them since young. Since Im like the oldest one in my family here, I didnt have anyone to look up to. I look up to them.

I really do. Man those times at mama's really really brought up memories. I remember getting bullied by Jeffrey. All the time.

Used to follow grandpa everywhere after school.

We played hide and seek everywhere we go. You name it.

Got hurt after falling down ,imagined we had superpowers, created games with our

imaginations,cycling every evening,crying.Everything.

I even remembered stuffing mama's not so nice porridge behind the fridge.

Its a little secret I didnt tell anyone until one day. They did spring cleaning and found many things behind the fridge. BUSTED. Then one day Frederick took in my lead. haha.

Until right now we're all so close.

Seriously, I really look up to them. Especially you Jenna jie :') especially you.

You know theres so much that I want to say. Knowing me? I wont say it. But I'll always remember :)

HAHA

Feeling a little touched right now :')

So lets just flashback.

A week ago at this time? I was getting nervous about playing 'Kudus Kudus' on the piano for mass because obviously I didnt practiced or played that song before. Anyways Im just saying, I sorta miss everyone. I still see everyone having that after effect of media camp. It really sweet how something like that can bring everyone closer. :') I'd say my entire week was all mixed up but I'd say it was good enough for me to always remember. Media Camp till Sunday.Then I had Grade 5 Theory Exam at Smk Puteri (my school). The exam was okay. Saw some people there too. Right after that, I went to MidValley with mommy. Bought Paramore tickets XD. Nice one on one day with mommy. The next day? I went to church for some Confirmation Shirt Design Comp. It was nice to see my friends again. Had fun that day and being the usuall me, I noticed some things. Wednesday was pretty slow for me. Went out with church pals on Thursday. HAHAHA. Great time for me at least. Cats & Dogs Movie and Bowling. Then I left home early :(
Not sure it was today? But I found out I had a scary neighbour. *shake it off*
Had raya at Fatema's place on Friday. Fats's brother and friends are funny people I tell you. We watch The Grudge 1&2 straight in a row. Got freaked out and then laughed after freaking out. Again being myself, I noticed things again. Then after that I had dinner at Aunty Caroline's place. BBQ and pictionary with cousins. Had a great time until they left me for Ali Baba CC (dota). Its always like this now. Me being the only teenage girl in the Yeoh family. Out nowhere I started texting Calvin. Hahaha. Good times good times. On the same night again, talked to mommy about things. Well the next day? I got woken up by Sean telling to get dressed cause we're going out for brunch at Bahau. OPERATION FAIL. Highway jam. Ended up eating at SUC. Then they left me again for Dota. So that explains how I had a marathon of HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER AND 90210 and now Im just waiting for them to come back here so I can tell them how awesome it was to just sit in front of the lappie all day. But my nights usually ends up good. These days. I'd say this week was ... WellI dont know how to sum up this week. But I know this week was filled with my friends and family. I wonder how next week's going to be like. Good? I hope so.

still having that after camp effect:)

Media Camp :')

I tend to drift away a lot and yeaaah I know it annoys people at times. Sorry? yeah sorry. Anyways I just woke up from my little nap after a 3 day 2 night camp: Media Camp. Needed to put this down into words.

Honestly? I didnt had the mood at all to go for camp. Well I did and then I lost it. But I'll tell you now, I've openned up eyes and realized a few things. Well everyone did but ofcourse things work differently in their minds. Everyone learned something. I remembered the first night. Seriously I couldnt sleep at all. At all. I was just thinking and I couldnt stop. Trust me they werent the things you'd think is I'd even come across. 3 days was good enough for me to realize I need to make a change.

Esther :) was my roomie. We did some pretty weird stuff in our room. LOL dont get the wrong idea. We talked and talked about things. Well yeah. Anyways we did some sort of activity on Saturday about choosing a picture that Mr.Augustine got us. and the picture we choose was suppose to represent what we are.

Right now?? The picture above represents me. Probably this picture may mean a different thing to you but to me? It shows that I am constantly thinking. You know I always secondthought about myself. Trust me its not a thing you'd want to take up. It brings you down. Most of the time it brings me down. I used to open up to my girls. You know who you are. I dont anymore. Everythings always kept inside. EVERYTHING. I keep them to myself so often that I cant even push myself to talk about it anymore, even when someone asks me right in the face? I'll probably tell you Im okay. Somehow? I managed to tell a little someone something real deep. Okay fine-.- I told me roomie laaaa. haha. Thanks Es for being there when I didnt know who to go to. Now I know I need to 'Let Go' and let fate decide.

I cant wait for Confirmation Camp now:) Had real fun with Esther,Sonia,Elysia,Judy,Nat,Azell,Marsha,Samantha,Calvin,Ezra,Brendan,Daryl,Julian,Aron,

Gabriel and the rest. I LOVE YOU GUYS:')

The productions for the team I was in turned out AWESOME. After our downfall, we still managed to bring something to the table on such a small amount of time. The part where everyone was like hugging and crying cuz everything was ending? awwwh I'll never forget that and yeah my mom :')

I've got so much more to say but I cant describe it. All I know is that 'it was worth it'. I'll never forget what happened. I'll never forget.