Maybe I was wrong

Yea maybe I was wrong. Everything's different now. The future's full of unexpected bumps. That's all there is to it.

Not a hint of regret

I sat down and thought quietly to myself.
Dont you think everything is fast forwarding too fast?? Im 16 now and its almost next year. Form 5. Then Im leaving school. Already I miss my primary life. Imma start missing my secondary life. I know I know. I went through
lots of shits with my friends. Almost got sued once. Imagine that. But really, if I look back? Theres not a single thing I'll regret. I wont regret on anything. I'll miss choir practice. I'll miss staybacks. I'll miss Kaalusha and gang. Haha I'll miss Elya. I'll miss buying OREOS. I'll miss Nata De Coco. I'll miss laughing around with my peeps. I'll miss walking around the corridors. I'll miss the juniors. I'll miss everything .

I promise I wont forget this life :)

I am full of uncertainties

Sofea and I were talking and reminiscing about life and the people revolving aroung us. How things are going to change,How people start to take responsibility,How time passes by so fast. Basically we talked about things we realized. I've been wanting to blog about something like this for quite some time but I havent found the right words to say. Even now as Im typing it all down it doesnt seem right.

Think about it. Now we're Form 4. Its basically half the year 2010 already. Next year we have SPM. Then the results we get will determine our future. The thing is, I dont know what's my future going to be like. Who does?? Im scard of the future. What it'll bring, happiness, sorrow?? IDK. I dont even know what I want to be right now. I am ambition-less. Everyone's been asking me about what I wanna be. I guess its that time of life where all the adults are curious about you. Im stcu in th in betweens. Im stuck in the middle. Decisions. I dont know what I want but I know I want to be on the right track. I want to know where Im going. Right now I dont know where I stand. What happens if I choose the wrong thing? The wrong choice.
Can I turn back? what if I dont do well at all? Okay Im just saying,but what if. And what if suddenly Im not here anymore? Would people still remember me? Well I dont think I left an impact on people's lives anyway. Well yea I mean Im just weird. Too weird.
LOL out of topic. Aite imagine we'll all be in college. This time knowing what we want to be I suppose. Then along the way what happens if we loose each other?? My friends?? What if we'll never met again? I dont want that to happen. Yea we'll meet new people. But I still want all of us together:) Dont leave me okay?? :) I know one thing's for sure. I'll miss you peeps:') Back to the topic. One day from university/college life we'll move up to work life. Imagine having your own car. Your own money. Your own apartment. Your own life alone technically. Its the time we discover things on our own. Like how our parents did.
Slowly in life,we'll have bills to pay. What?? Electricity bills,phone bills,water bills,house bills?? Credit card bills!! Buy our own groceries. Plus now that I have Hayley? I'll have to take care of her. Theres just one thing I want right now. With the right choice, I want to be able to wake up everyday and go to work with a smile on my face. I want to love my job. Wont it be great to get a job you love? The problem right now is that I dont know what I want. I mean as a headstart so I can do well in school to get the job I want la. Its okay if I dont know what I want now. I just have to know what I want when the time is right.


But if its possible, I just want to be a kid forever. Then maybe I'll just worry about monsters and boogeymans.

Honestly can you believe we crossed the world while its asleep

I've been praying for Paramore to come down :') I've been spamming Hayley Williams on Twitter. I've been dreaming of Paramore concerts. Okay I know. Obsessed much?? IDC!!
Please owh please come down will you??!!

Before its too late it could all disapear

Keep holding on. Cause you know we'll make it through :')

PICTIONARY is HILLARIOUS

Uncle David brought us fishing today:) Flying Frogs and Prawns!! Haha. Sadly we went home empty handed. Din Din at mama's hse.
And we played Pictionary afterwards :D




Pictionary with my cousins,dad,aunties and uncles:)

Seriously. Playing this really changes your perspective on how you look at things after looking at the MIND BLOWING DRAWINGS.

Haha. We were talking about childhood times spent together when we were kids during dinner. Then Jenna came up with an idea to play Pictionary. Everyone left their set at home. No Pictionary at mama house. Guess what?? We went to Parkson and bought Pictionary. Lots of shouts and laughter filled the night. Half way through the game I had TOE CRAMP and my toes looked so funny I laughed for about 15 MINUTES. Then Aunty Caroline was like 'Fran if you can laugh like this, I bet you'll be laughing while giving birth' HAHA :D


Take a look at this




Why dont you tell me what this is??


I bet you thought it was a ... You know what Im talking about :D But NO its actually suppose to be NOSE BLEED. Haha Jennifer's drawing.

Define Pictionary : A masterpiece of Imagination

Its about time I cross over

Roads. Im never good at crossing them.

Whoever She Is

Whoever she is
Whoever she may be
One thing's for sure
You dont have to worry.

Currently addicted to The Maine:)

Pretty awesome band. If I must say. Well everyone has their own type of music genre.

How I wish Malaysian bands are like that. Actually, they're starting to get better:)

I still want Paramore to come down. I've been spamming her on Twitter to get her to tweet me back. Till the day comes, I wont stop. Obsessed much?? Yea.

Tell me that you love me.
And it will be alright.
Are you thinking of me??
Just with me tonight.
You know I need you.
Just like you need me.
Cant stop
Wont stop
I must be dreaming <3

another song by The Maine.

I want you back here :'(

You know theres always a someone whom you've known since you were little?? And had a lot in common?? Well maybe not everyone but yeaaa.

I really miss Syarifah Insyirah!!! I miss you so damn much:( why did you have to go to Labuan??!! I remembered telling her that I'd visit her when I visit my aunts in Sabah but hello?? Labuan's another island and where are you??? :(

LMAO we had real fun in primary. How awesome was it to see her again in secondary??!! Yay!! But she went away at the end of Form 1. Same class somemore!!! :D

Haha Khilda Farhanah I still remember you. And Dayang:) my sayang!! LOL
I still remember where Khilda was teaching me maths and Faris came along to prove that her teaching skills were wrong! Big fight!! Haha.

Khilda,Amira,Dayang and I were red house atlets. Red House always win:) and we were prefects!! Haha. I remember that khilda,Dayang,Amirul,Faris,Faiz and I used to walk to Khilda's house after school. We were chased by dogs!! That was something to laugh about. Owh and Ikram was born on the same day I was born!! LOL. I miss those days.
I really do.

Panchor peeps?? I miss you guys so much:')

apparently theres a Twin:)

HAPPY SWEET 16th TWIN:)

Hayley she is:)

Rachelle Lee, Thank You for Hayley:)

Luna or Hayley?

#nowplaying Closer To The Edge- 30 Seconds To Mars

Went out for din din with grandpa:) Saw Julia,Cheok and Nicole KT at Bee Kee. Haha. Put on a smile till after din din. Watched Despicable Me in 3D. Well it was a really funny movie. I practically love Agnes:) She's so cute. The 3D effects were awesome not like the dissapointing Alice In Wonderland. Now I cant wait to watch Narnia in 3D and Step UP 3 in 3D. I think most of the movies will be coming out in 3D now. And right now Im sick. I have no idea how Im suppose to go through tomorrow's routines. I've got to attend mass. Then head straight for class (fun time) and then go for piano. Every week no stop. I just want to rest.

I've talked to my dad about the puppy. He said no. CLEARLY NO means NO. I didnt say anything after that. I just went up straight into my room and stayed there. I'd take this pup in and change myself for the better if thats what you want daddy. Im still pretty upset but Im not giving up. I'll ask again after mass tomorrow. In church. Lord, please help me. I hope being in church gives my dad a good vibe?? Or maybe I'll ask him when he comes to class. Maybe then he'll say yes??? I mean he has to. Mommy said yes:)
Till then Luna or Hayley??

woof woof:)

Rachelle's giving away her puppies:') She said she wants to give me one. Alrealy with that statement I am so happy:) I've been begging my mom and dad for a Toy Poodle. I've seen him(pup) at MidValley. Wanted one. RM 2000?? Expensive yes. I really wanted one. Imagine.. A puppy that'll soon grow and play around the house. Bring her/him for a walk. Woof woof here and there. Then again her poopies :( but Im willing to take care of that. For a pup I will.

You're the harmony to every song I sing

This blog post goes out to all the choir girls I've grown to know.

We came in 2nd place. Well its something to rejoice about:) Although we really wanted to make a difference this year. But I guess its up to us all to try again next year:') Now I cant wait. Had a really nice time talking to Joyce and Jessamine. Hopefully we'll see you next year. Enjoy the chocolate ice cream and talks with Alethea and Loh:) and you girls for singing Tokio Hotel while I sleep in the bus. Haha.

We'll rock the stage next year. Bring it on Chan Wa!!!

The high and low notes:)

Tomorrow is the day girls:) We can do it. Even if we dont win (touch wood) we'll know we did our best. Like last year:')

Jessamine, Tay Li Wen, Denise, Alethea, Rachel Cheok, Michelle Chan, Sonia, Vi Vien, Leek Yin,Sim Yin, Hui Min, Natasha, Sofea, Twin, Esther, Elysia, Bernie, Jolene, Sharvin, Bao Chi, Crystal, Dayang, Joann, Susan, Adeline, Belinda, Lai, Yong, Wong, Lim, another Lai.

And Michelle Yeoh and Winnie:')

Thanks Joyce,Mei Sann,Sook Fun,Mei Ji and Siu Ting for coming back to check on us. Especially Joyce for reminding us why we need to win states.

Win or not. Its the family bond that we've always had that matters most:')

<3 all you girls.

I LOVE CARTOONS

I love watching cartoons. Why?? Dont you??
:)

Spongebob Squarepants

Johnny Bravo

The Adventures of Gummi Bears

Bubu Chacha

Fairy Odd Parents

Dexter's Laboratory

CatDog

All That

Rugrats

Hey Arnold

Wouldnt Change A Thing

Its like he doesnt hear a word I say
His mind is somewhere far away
And I dont know how to get there
Its like all he wants is to chill out
(she's too serious)
He makes me wanna pull all my hair out
(she's always in a rush and interrupted)
Like he doesnt even care
(like she doesnt even care)

*You me we're face to face
But we dont see eye to eye
+Like fire and rain
(like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(you can drive me insane)
But I cant stay mad at you for anything
We're venus and mars
(we're venus and mars)
We're like different stars
(we're like different stars)
You're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldnt change a thing

She's always trying to save the day
Just wanna let my music play
She's all or nothing
But my feelings never change
Why does he try to read my mind
(I try to read her mind)
He tries to pick a fight to get attention
That's what all my friends say

repeat * +

When Im yes She's no
When I hold on He just lets go
We're perfectly imperfect
But I wouldnt change a thing.
No

repeat +

Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas
Wouldnt Change A Thing

why dont you take time and listen to it??
:)

you would sing it back to me

I would love to be surrounded by crowd of Paramore fans. Let alone to be at their concert.

<3

Yesterday once more.

Yesterday:)
Woke up real early for breakfast sale. Then had piano all day long. Dinner with cousins and then watch a lil movie called Eclipse. LOL.
The sale was great. Esther's Sunsilk song spreading everywhere. Haha I remembered telling Ezra to look at this boy cuz his shoes had lights on them. Who would ever knew that, that boy's mum would take off his pants!! HAHAHAH. Then again selling food and touching money;) I'd have to admit that it was really nice that everyone was there. 'Jalan Jalan Cari Makan'. I'll miss these sales when they're over. I know I will. You people made my day :) you too.

Piano lesson was... Okay?? Idk. I thought about quiting. But then again, I've come this far.
Dinner then Eclipse. I must say, I didnt really enjoy the movie. Only the part where Jasper train the vamps and werevolves. Sorta weird cuz there were lots of smooching scenes (sister was next to me) haha. Maybe I've lost my TWILIGHT LOVE??? Yea maybe.

FTW Im all HARRY POTTER now XD

Elvis I still want you:)

I've been dreaming about dogs lately. I know its weird that I dream about animals?? Please.. I have had dreams where I can fly and shoot laser beams through my fingers. Haha. I even dreamt about living underwater:) Trust me, its not a nice dream. Try opening the door with a SHARK coming through.

so wont you fly with me

Right now I just want to get a plane ticket and fly to Paris or Japan?? I dont know. I just want to get away from here. I want to go to somewhere where people dont know me. Meet new people.

You Are Strong

This post is for you love:)
Never in my life have I ever met anyone as strong as you. Being strong for your loved ones. But know that WE are always here for you. For comfort and sorrow.

<3 you Rachelle always.

RIP Aunty Lee.

Im In Repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes it with it, my old ways
And bring some brand new luck upon me

In Repair - John Mayer

Suddenly his music has become my companion.

crying on a rainy sunday

Had that dream today. I know somehow it'll never happen to me. Thinking about it makes me judge myself. Remembering what people told about their first impression when they see me. I've been getting the same kind of impression from a lot of people. Then again thinking about me. Am I really like that?? Why dont I know who I am?? I dont know. I dont know what to believe or see. And it does hurts when I hear people say that. Really it hurts.

Moved on. Needed to go to church to be a warden. Then again I was tired from camp. I was. Needed to be smiley today. Did it worked?? But I know Im not poker face. You asked whether I was okay. Why Im emo?? LOL I was just tired??? Well thats what I said. Everyone thought I was emo. Am I really that bad of a poker face??? well yes. I am tired and sad. Thats it. Had fun at the end of class after exam. Hah time flies when your having fun. Thanks to the both of you:) experiments experiments. Haha.

Rainy sunday huh. Got home and idk why I got scolding. A lot of banning. I cried. In my room. I dont like this. Now, Im blogging about how I feel and Im reading my camp letters. Again.. Someone told me I need to SMILE more. Am I really that sad looking???

We're slow dancing in a burning room

No matter how messed up I feel, listening to someone who can play me Slow Dancing In A Burning Room will definately turn my frown upside down:)