We have each other to lean on for the road ahead.

I LOVE YOU ALL :)

Went through some things.

Remember this Sofea?

It was a joke meant for Esther :)

And I can see a brighter day.

Apparently its the last day of 2010. Its been quite a year for me. I'd say its the best year I've ever had. Sitting down as I went through my black notebook. I write everything down in that book of mine. I remember misplacing it one day, yeah I cried :p Everything,my plans,my days,what I feel,random lyrics,pictures,anything. Its all in there. You see that book below my black notebook? Well thats for 2011.

From the first day of school,

The Sweet 16 parties

Y2Y Camp

Preconfirmation Sales :')

Teacher's Day

Choir Competitions

MTV Worldstage

Boys Like Girls

Paramore:')

Pandu Camp

Media Camp:')

Confirmation Camp :')

Easter Mass

Good Friday

My 2nd Grade 5 Practical examination

School exams

Hangouts

Tomato & Potato Day

Family Vacays

Sabah

Scary Movie moments

A few friend's family losses

Days when I had my breakdowns

Greenboxing Fridays

Christmas

Chinese New Year

My piano lesson days

and it only took a few camps to make me realize how much my faith

is worth to me.

This year was full of ups and downs,well mostly ups :) I appreciated everyday of 2010. That I know because I wouldnt be standing here alive today, feeling superbly blessed that this year has been a really great year for me. Im sure for most of you people too :')

Thank you peeps, for making this year as such an incredible year for me. I love you all.

and then comes 2011 when the clock strikes 12.00 tonight:)

Like sweet serendipity.

It was good to be back home all the way in Sabah. Got on the plane with Fred and saw one of our church member on the way to Sabah. That Aunty laa :) She asked us whether we're going back Home, I said yeah we are :) Merry Christmas Aunty :)

This time was a little different, Nenek wasnt there anymore. Faustina had a new sister which I didnt know about.Alfred had a son I've never seen since his son was born and Daddy wasnt with us this time around.

I pretty much appreciated every single day in Sabah. Everyday was a good day. Hah Aunty Fwan. Yes I was. Funny enough, it actually feels nice to be an aunt. Playing with my niece almost all the time. Damn nice wey :')

I remember on Christmas Eve. That night before going to St Joseph. Daddy called, that call was emotional. He was alone at home and said he would be leaving for Church before 10.30pm. He was alone. Have you ever spent Christmas alone?? Anyways, I went downstairs right after that call and Alan and his family came :D Gosh, I miss them so much!!! LOL

Fran: Whoii Alan, why you so hot now ahh??

Alan:I've always been superbly hot, now only you realized?

Both: HAHAHHAA

Christmas day was awesome. Kuala Penyu :) got all the sloppy kisses from everyone there. HAHAHA Fred almost got kissed on the lips by atok. LMAO.

The night before leaving Sabah. Didnt know it was Alfred's birthday. I found out and we all did a surprise din din. Went out for a movie with the cousins. I realized here in Sabah,Alan's like me in Seremban. He's surrounded by girls (cousins,sisters). He's got no other 'guy' person. Like me, in Seremban surrounded by guys of my age (cousins). Idk this time's trip back home,I've grown closer to him. Lots of advice on life onwards from him. Appreciate it.

Anyways, before entering that scaning thing at the airport, it was an awwhing moment for me :)

Did some jungle trackking at kampung.

Mom showed us where she used to run to when she merajuk :p

Another kampung.

Love coming back here everytime.

Typical Sabahans here :)

Fran is leaving for Sabah on the 23rd which is today actually. Flight's at 8am :) I'll be in the airport in the early morn while the sun slowly rises. I love going to the airports early in the morning or going there at late late nights. I dont know why. I remember at one point daddy had to go to overseas for work so many times and most of his flights were early in the morning. Yeah on school nights, I'll always beg mommy to let me tag along just to drop him off. Obviously I'll bring my pillow in the car, hugging it and singing along to songs on the radio. Wont sleep until I reach home. Hahah good times, good times. I cant wait to see everyone back there :)

I'll probably get the chance to blog and tweet while Im there, when I get the chance la :p

Got a little upset today, when Syarifah texted me about her not being able to meet up in KK. Its alright, if it wasnt meant to be then let it be.

I miss you guys so much :( next year's Christmas will be spent with all of you around :)

This year had a lot of effect on me, friends I mean. After school ended, I was just too busy doing things. Planning things for choir. Yeah I had a lot of time to sit and think about what we all did this year. Got myself thinking about how much I miss you guys while I was packing. HAHAH.

Right now, I cant wait for Christmas and I cant wait to spend New Year's Eve back here in Seremban. Most of all, I cant wait to sit down and really put a thought about what happened through out this whole year.

Till then, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone.

God Bless you peeps :)

Did little goodbyes tonight :)

Went to mama hse for din din just now. Everyone came back already. Everyone was there well except for mommy and the other 2.
Watched the Langkawi video Uncle took :) haha it was really imbarassing :p see those ribbons? Yeah Jennifer and I made them. All 88 of them. Well Jennifer already made another 1000 of them back in KL. Helping out on ku che's christmas decos for chocolates. If you happen to buy any chocolates from PATCHI and you see those ribbons? Well, chances are, Francisca Yeoh tied them together :)

#nowplaying Another Day-Paramore
theres always another day :)

have I just realized? hhaha

Our christmas cards arrived on mail today :) There was one for me.

Every year, I'd always get one from this monkey. We all do? I suppose. But this year's one was a little different. Read it all and girl, you mean so much to me :')

Only then at 4.30pm, I realized wow you were always there. Even when you're just sitting there and taking our foods during recess. You were always there and that somehow makes me strong.

Yeah to you Im a crybaby, because you're the only one who sees me crying when we talk about things. You're the only one who really knows whats going on with me. Not saying you're the only one laa I mean obviously there are people here and there going through things worst than we do kan?? and again, I've got so many other awesome people I love.

I know all of this year, people question me why am I so close to you. I never did bother about what people say. I mean yeah, I understand why people say things, well thats because they see you and judge you from the outside. But to me, LOL you're beautiful from the inside. I dont care what people say about you. LOL you are one heck of a crazy girl on the outside but hey, you were always there. Damn I sorta teared reading your card.

*btw I've always kept the rest*

I've always told myself it'll go away. Well once in awhile it does go away. But it always come back.

I really get pissed when it does because I just realized what its done. Its like being in this bubble I want to burst and when I do pop it, later on I remember and then comes another bubble.

Damn I hate this bubble but at the same time I love it. HAHAHAHAH.

#nooneinthisdayyuumworldwouldgetthis#

haaha Bubbles like Powerpuff Girls :)

used to love watching that.

Its 3.13pm and I just woke up and I feel like :/ sigh.
Hmmm I dont know why? But I dreamt about it again. Again??
Anyways, today's my last day in Seremban.
I'll do my last post before I leave, tonight.

Going through some songs of worship now.

I remember singing Here I Am To Worship.

Your Love Is Everything - Jesus Culture

Love watching them on youtube :)

Christmas feel :)

thats a road on the way to Papar.

Literally I felt the whole

CHRISTMAS IN SABAH

today.

I've been calling mummy every night since Saturday about

whats happening there and all :)

I cant wait to see everyone.

Damn I feeling it tonight!

We always pull through :)

Its been awhile since I last saw Sofea.

Owh well I saw her today:)

The train nearly left without us this morning so we ran and ran to get on it .

HAHAHAH.

Slept in the train on our way back and obviously Sofea was laughing at me

because of the way I slept.

*reminded her of school times*

Great day today.

BTW awesome lunch today :)

#nowplaying Amsterdam-Coldplay

purps:)

Looking at the things I have.

Im pretty amazed I've found an interest in the colour purple now.

For 2 years, I've got a purple sketch book.

I've got purple pencil nips.

I've got 5 purple shirts.

I've got a purple pillow.

I even bought book a novel because it was purple in colour.

Although Im not a huge fan of Taylor Swift, but her latest album's got that sort of pull to me.

Lyrically I mean. Hmm.

Anyways,tomorrow one more try on The Maine. If not, next time KLCC.

Funny thing. Hmmm why is everyone coming in on me tonight?

Again I'll say it, I dont mind.

SELIEBER??!!

WHAT??!!

LOL

anyways Im not wow-ing at the fact that they're going out together right now.

Im wow-ing at that shirt she's wearing.

Its PURPLE and STRIPES:)

FROM THIS

TO THIS

for now.

Hide Your Eyes

2 days after everything, Zac Farro's in another band??!!
#nowplaying Hide Your Eyes-Tunnels

and

ZAC FARRO'S trending on Twitter??!!

WHAT??!!!

Wake up call caught you in the morning with another one in my bed (well not really haha )

I woke up at 12.30pm today.

Then slept back at 2.30pm.

Got a wake up call from Sofea at 5pm telling me to turn to channel 705.

Guess what I saw?

THE HOOSIERS-GOODBYE MR.A

was on TV

HOMYGOSSSHHHHH :D

later on then

NeverShoutNever and Hot Hot Heat came on.

Then MGMT was playing.

Then

Scouting For Girls

was playing.

Breakeven was also playing :)

I, Francisca Yeoh hereby declare

Channel 705 is way better than MTV.

LOL

I cant believe we almost hung it up.

I cant believe we almost hung it up

We're just getting started.

#nowplaying Looking Up-Paramore

THE FARRO'S LEFT PARAMORE

Every single gig Looking Up was played.

I had that gut feeling the day Josh got married that he would leave Paramore one day

because he'd be busy with his marriage life and stuff.

Who would have thought Zac would leave too.

Josh practically co-founded the band with Hayley and Zac.

Thats when the rest slowly came into the band.

I am soo thankful and grateful that I got to see Josh and Zac this year.

I really am.

Paramore wouldnt be the same old Paramore anymore.

Im putting my full support on Hayley,Taylor and my dear dear Jeremy :)

I cant wait to see what the new Paramore has become :)

Life's like an hourglass glued to the table.

Only the young can break away

I went to school today.

Bought my school books.

The school was so empty I tell you.

Well obviously, its the holidays.

Walking down the lane where I first stepped into Puteri.

I mean the school wasnt much but its what I did here and there

with the people I know now that keeps the memory alive.

I remember on my first day. I didnt know anyone. Well except for Esther and a few others.

*catechism*

*Madam Ong's tuition*

All the Form 1s would gather around the canteen area because we all didnt know where else to go. Then we'd have our orientation and stuff.

I remember my first set of new friends were Jo and Ely. Cuz then Sonia introduced them to me.

Then I met Naurah my dear dear Nau Nau.

How I met her?

We were all split into groups for some groupwork I think.

And apparently the people in my group had too much of their own ideas

so everyone fought.

LOL then I merajuk about something I cant remember.

Then I saw this girl at one side or something.

Went to her.

fran:Hi there

nau:Can you believe they're fighting over something so stupid?

fran:I know right!!

and we were friends.

Turns out we ended up in the same class and she became the monitor and

I was her assistant :)

and then Form 2 came and Form3 and now Im at the ending of Form4.

I remember talking to Rachelle about how Form1s will always stay at the canteen on their

first day.

Next year, on the first day of school 2011,

that'll be my last year of seeing the Form1s staying at the canteen looking nervous

on their first day.

Im looking forward for that first day of 2011.

:)

Senior year:')

Aliens poop gold shits. LOL

I just woke up and I found that stuffed toy on my hand. I think somebody put it there :)
Sonia and Sofea gave it to me when they were visiting me at the hospital last year:)
Thanks peeps ILY.
Came downstairs and straight away I saw an alien pooping gold shit on tv. Ben 10. Haha

Tarsh's

NATASHA'S WORK OF ART ;)

Good laugh.

credits to Nat :)

Let This Go came on and I remember Paramore was playing this song at their concert. I remember closing my eyes and singing along with all my heart.

cleaned up my table today :)





Peace signs :) my current obsession.

I must be dreaming

I remember when I was a fan of The Maine way back from their first album :)

It was a thing Rachelle and I had. Although she prefers FTSK more than The Maine but hey its The Maine :) you and I, Rach.

The Maine changed their sound but hey bands change their sound just like how time changes things.

Im still hunting down both of their albums. Most Rock Corners dont have them.

KLCC Rock Corners might have a chance for me. I'll come finding The Maine when I get back from Sabah. Hey who knows, maybe Sabah's got their albums :)

Growing up wont bring us down

its become a habit that I'll listen to this after listening to Never Grow Up-Taylor Swift
:)

Great things happen in a blink of an eye

Went through Felicia's playlist this morning. Then song One In A Million-Hannah Montana came up. Hahah I went like wow I miss this song. Back in those days, I loved listening to Hannah Montana's songs. Theres a huge difference between Hannah Montana and Miley Cyrus songs. Hannah's ones are more of friendship,family and probably life but Miley's ones are all mixed up.

Heard One In A Million then I went through her playlist to listen to Make Some Noise and True Friend. Wow I used to love singing these songs :)

The was a phrase in One In A Million.

"They say that good things take time but really great things happen in a blink of an eye"

Teen Titans go!!

Just had a convo with Darian:)

Him realizing that time's passing by so fast. Next year, Sean's going back to the US. Jeffrey will be even busier with college. Me,him and Fred's in our exam year. Then soon Im leaving for college. Only Darian and Fred left. LOL forget the little ones. ahhah they've got their own gang. Probably sooner when they are older, they'll go through what we're going through now.

Jeffrey,Sean and Darian. Hmm including Fred. Lol my brothers :)

They've always got my back. Always.

Damn the way Darian's talking about how much he misses our childhood makes me wanna cry.

hahah. I used to be like that, awhile ago but I see things differently now. When through really deep talks. Haha 'yoda talk'. No one knows Im a deep thinker, well except for my close friends and mommy. Gave Darian some talks about this and that, and now he's like wow fran I didnt know you're like this. Hahahha :)

Life goes on little one, its what we do now that'll make a difference.

We'll just have to enjoy what we have now before life takes on its own track.

I remember the 5 of us loved Teen Titans and Kids Next Door when we were young.

Jeffrey : Robin and Number 1 (red)

Sean: Cyborgh and Number 2 (blue)

Darian:Beastboy and Number 3 (green)

Fred:Star and Number 4 (yellow)

Me:Raven and Number 5 (blue)

realize how our KND matches our favourite colour.

Sooner or later things will change but hey we're still standing strong today :')

The Reader

I was watching this just now.

It reminded me of

The Boy In Striped Pyjamas.

How the German guards would sent the Jews to be burnt.

The Reader.

Something to watch.

Media Camp :)

Saw this book in MPH and maybe I should get that book.

arrange them notes

I've been pressing notes and singing and humming all day long.

I could arrange songs vocally all day and would never feel frustrated :)

Satisfied with what I've done so far. Another 5 days left until I can finish all 3 songs :)

*arrangement by Francisca Yeoh

and when the voices combine

What I want for choir next year?

When I started at the age of 13, choir was like the coolest club in school.

I mean choir was fun for everyone back then.

As years go by, I realized people tend to focus more and only on the competition team.

Club members nowadays, always sit aside and watch.

I've got news that some of the best are even leaving us because they think choir's becoming more boring. Okayh yes boring. I realized that. But hey when you're in the competition team, its totally different. Really.

Next year,I want people to start noticing choir again. Not only for the competition members but also from the club members side. Here I am hoping that what's going to happen next year, will give that impact for the rest to realize whats the competition team like. Only then, they would know choir's not only singing.

I cant do all of this on my own. Thank God I have a bunch of awesome people by my side :)

I cant do anything without any of you:')

You people damn awesome la.

and then we sing

Had a vocal arrangement urge just now.

I'll wait till tomorrow morning.

Hey I'll try to wake up early to start off early.

Anything to make everyone enjoy themselves in Choir Club next year:)

Peeps you'll be expecting some of

Glee and present songs on the radio:)

Im pretty excited myself.

The easy part is mashing up the voices.

But the hard part is putting them on paper.

Thats a lot of work.

Well I've finally got something to work on.

Hopefully I'll get it all done :)

OHMYGOSH IM SO EXCITED.

We face tomorrow as we say goodbye to yesterday

Saw an episode of Hannah Montana Forever on Sunday. Their last episode.

This song Miley sang at the ending of the episode is exactly where Im at right now.

#nowplaying Wherever I Go-Hannah Montana Forever

yeah I know Fran still watches Hannah Montana. But hey, their songs are not that bad.

*some of them*

Here we are now
Everything is about to change
We face tomorrow as we say goodbye to yesterday
A chapter ending but the stories only just begun
A page is turning for everyone

So I’m moving on
Letting go
Holding on to tomorrow
I’ve always got the memories while I’m finding out who I’m gonna be
We might be apart but I hope you always know
You’ll be with me wherever I go
Wherever I go

So excited I can barely even catch my breath
We have each other to lean on for the road ahead
This happy ending is the start of all our dreams
And I know your heart is with me

So I’m moving on
Letting go
Holding on to tomorrow
I’ve always got the memories while I’m finding out who I’m gonna be
We might be apart but I hope you always know
You’ll be with me wherever I go

Its time to show the world we’ve got something to say
A song to sing out loud we’ll never fade away
I know I’ll miss you but we’ll meet again someday
We’ll never fade away

So I’m moving on
Letting go
Holding on to tomorrow
I’ve always got the memories while I’m finding out who I’m gonna be
We might be apart but I hope you always know
You’ll be with me wherever I go

So I’m moving on
Letting go
Holding on to tomorrow
I’ve always got the memories while I’m finding out who I’m gonna be
We might be apart but I hope you always know
You’ll be with me wherever I go

Wherever, Wherever I go

#nowplaying Nineteen-Tegan and Sara

Its a Monday morning now :) hmm it was really nice seeing you peeps on Sunday :) good start for that day :)

So I guys next time, I'll see all of you on a Sunday next year? :P Im looking forward to that now. Hah school will be starting by then. Hmm I wonder whether I'll still be in Zeta. Who knows I might stay with Ely next year.

Its now 13th December and I've realized wow, time's passing by so fast. Theres too much for me to look forward to. Langkawi, Sabah and then New Year's Eve. Then BAAMMM School.
Owh well Im looking forward to blogging about 2010 on 2011. That'll be something. Plus it'll be my blog's one year anniversary :P

untitled.

Thank you Jesus for making me realize how much my life is worth. Amen.

#jusathought

Birthday cakes :D just another thing I love.
I mean if you love birthday cakes as much as I do :) was explaining this theory to mommy just now. I was wondering why do people eat birthday cakes on birthdays only? Think about it, have you ever eaten a birthday cake besides eating it on birthdays? Well for me, I only have them on birthdays. I was thinking, when I finally have my own pay and appartment, I'd buy myself a birthday cake once in awhile and eat it up. Yeah I would.
Hmm I've also thought about another thing. Where in some movies, some people like to leave their player on the whole day. For example 'The Reservation'. That chef guys plays his picks on opera songs when he gets home. And some people just listen to their music whenever they have the mood to. I've thought about it, I think I would leave my music playing the whole day :)
LOL imagine cooking in the kitchen and Misery Business came on. Hahahah.
#justathought I had :)

ice cream :D

I hope I see some people tomorrow and thats if I bum into them because after tomorrow, I wont see anyone anymore until next year. Probably am stuck at home until the 16th. Then aunt's place for a day then Langkawi. Then Sabah. Then 2011. I feel like going out next week one more time before me fly away.
Hmm daddy really got me thinking about how much time I have left before January. 20 days.
Gotta start arranging choir scores.

You peeps take care alright? :)


Call on me brother, when you need a hand.
We all need somebody to lean on :)

I've been eating ice cream the whole day.
Finished up the whole big bucket on my own.
Sleep wake up eat tv piano eat sleep eat. Yes I eat early in the morning. Now's morning right? :)
Im a pig. I dont know why I feel tired so fast.

Anyways :) since its the month of christmas.
MERRY CHRISTMAS :)

12th December 2010

Happy Birthday Brendan :D

#nowplaying Happy Birthday-Click Five

grr :D

Read up on some old stuff today. What I did, thinking about it. Hmm pretty stupid but in a way its something la. Changed my mind in certain ways on how I see things. *snapsnap* just like that. That got me going owh wow just like that.

Playing Here I Am To Worship on the piano :)
I cant wait for that day to come so I could play it with all the girls around and listening to them singing while I play :)

Did some listening on Lean On Me (Glee).
Pretty strong foundation on choir vocals towards the ending. Got me going :D


and now to play some Disney songs :)

#nowplaying Growing Up-The Maine

Probably mindless dreaming

Hey this year's coming to an end. I had that feeling on the last day I went to school.

Right now, Im having that feeling again but its way stronger. 2010's almost coming to an end.

Saw Racheal Tay in Jusco just now. I realized, hey SPM's really over for them. I'll be in their position at this time, next year. Then what happens? Wait for results and have fun with your friends before splitting up for college? Then again I realized I wont see Jess and Winnie anymore.

They're like the older people I go to in school. I learn from them :) Im going to miss you seniors :) I really will. Thinking about it, wow really next year. Me and the rest replacing what Jess and the were to the younger ones. Thats big. Well in my point of view it is.

Well hmm yeah, this year really did passed by that fast. Lots of memories :)

LOL I feel like crying right now :') Im touched. HAHAHAH. I realized I've been blogging about past memories and people I miss a lot. Well I blog about them so that next time I can read up my blog and remember more.

#nowplaying Back To December-Taylor Swift

This song's usually played when I have my flashbacks :)

So yeah when I hear this, dont mind me tearing a little bit.

#nowplaying Friends,Lovers or Nothing-John Mayer

I tried speaking in Cantonese for an hour with everyone at home. Hahaha only Daddy understood me. So yeah I told him 'Ngaw ho hoi sam' :D

Anyways for the past few days, I've been dreading to see my friends. I really miss a whole bunch of them. Went out , appreciated seeing some of them cuz then I had this feeling the next time I'll see them is next year. Heading back to Sabah soon and before that Langkawi. Well since mommy and the other 2 girls wont be here after I come back from Langkawi, I might be staying over at Jeffrey's place if daddy insists.

I'll you soon then :)

*miss you peeps*

9th December 2010

Happy Birthday Calvin :D
same goes to Brendan in advanced :)

Lying down on my yellow bed, damn I cant help but smile at what we all did today. The times I laughed. Haha I probably had that 'I feel like laughing' mood the whole day. Good times good times.
Im glad the two of you liked your pressies :P

*my December keeps getting better*

Cast of Glee perform Don't Stop Believing - The X Factor Live Semi-Final...

AMAZING :D

next chapter,2011

I miss you girls damn much :/

I've been complaining all day long about missing you peeps.

Tweeting so much about how much I miss yall.

My potato.

Rachelle Lee Rachelle Lee UHHH Rachelle Lee Rachelle Lee YEAH

Twin.

Bernie,the burper.

Sonia :)

Nat,the Sheldon.

Fat-Epa.

Esther, my pembuli.

Elysia, my care-taker.

Im waiting for next year. New memories.

ILY :')

I will go the distance

I miss watching this movie :')

The series too.

Played 'Go The Distance' today :)

The perks of being a wallflower

I want to read and watch this :)

Emma Watson & Logan Lerman

Stoochie woochie

One day before I go back to Sabah, I'll walk in into Jusco with my hoodie,shades and a cap on along with Stoochie :) BTW Stoochie's my moustache's name. Sofea came up with the name.

@SofeaAkbar and @Ciscoistomato on late nights tweeting.

I cant sleep.

The things I did with Sofea. *smiling at the memories*

:)

Dont you ever grow up. Stay this simple.

I feel a change. I really do and I dont like it.

New December

Alright lets do some updates on my December. Its December 8 now. For me, well I always had this thing where my Decembers always bring good memories and stuff. So Im waiting this December to end so I could sum up what 2010's December's like :)

Now that I've just realized, theres a lot of 'December' at the beginning of my post. Owh well.

School ended about 2/3 weeks ago? Anyways, I started my December with a nice bang:) The after-confirmation camp feeling. I pretty much did lots of flashbacking to when it was media camp and the earlier sales. So it was a smiley first week I suppose. Family gatherings. Shopping. Spend most of my time on the piano :) That was good. Group lessons. Owh and just earlier today, I found interest in Taylor Swift's latest album. Speak Now. I dont like her? But I like her songs. There you go Swifty, I like your songs.

Cant wait for the rest of December. But then again, 2011. Well why dont we just make the most of it huh :')

#nowplaying Innocent-Taylor Swift

who you are is not who you've been, you're still an innocent

7th December 2010

Sorry Im a few minutes late :P
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELICIA :D
Think about it, you'll be starting High School next year at the age of 12 while all your friends are probably 13 already :)

Moustache. They're itchy -.-"

Dont ask me why. I just bought a moustache from ToysRus. Went to the counter and yeah the uncle behind me was laughing at me :D

4.51am

Currently reading this :)

Owl :D

I've always wanted to get one :)

Maybe I will.

Christmas shopping :)

Now let me show let me show you TSOMH

Brings back memories :')

Lean on me :)

Friday, our first choir meeting. Alethea was there. For some reason, I knew she wanted to tell me something. She never got the chance to tell me face to face. She did then. That Friday.

Its okayh. I understand :) Well you know where I'll be, if theres ever anything, Im all ears.

Anyways, as we were planning out our schedule for next year, I realized how time will pass by very fast. Wow. Thats all I can say. Wow.

Shape of my heart. We sang this a lot last time.

Woke up today and I thought it was a Monday. Heck, I still feel like its a Monday.Funny how I was brushing my teeth ? I started thinking about some stuffs. My childhood memories.

It was always the 5 of us. The four of them and me. Being the only girl, ahh forget it, I'll go do whatever they do. Back then my behaviour was like a boy. Everyone always told me how I should start being more like Jenna and Jennifer. LOL. The guys, they're the reason I played Pokemon on the gameboy. I remember everytime we meet up, we'd be like 'so what level is your bulbasaur at?' or like 'did you find that legendary bird in that cave yet?' Then theres Digimon :)

Darian and I used to play 'masak-masak and doctor' I remember everyone used to tease him for being like such a girl. Then there were times where we like to kacau Jeff's neighbours. Indian kids.

One time we went to the football field and threw all of their (indian kids) slippers far far away. Fred actually threw one in the drain. They saw us and we ran :) HAHAHHA. I remember cycling everywhere in the evenings. Saturdays would be one of the days we'd really look forward to. The 5 of us would have badminton practice in the morning. Then Jeff would order french fries after our exercise. Then our coach would give us that look. LOL. Then go back mama hse and shower. Then we would go to the archade :) Thanks to mama, we'd always get lots and lots of coins for tokens. Dinner still goes on until now. There was this phase where we were addicted to playing Monopoly. So we played that all the time. Then there was Twister. Then pictionary. Then came the PS,PS2 and PS3. Now basically they're more on Dota and obviously I wouldnt want to bother them la. Most Saturdays involve them going to CC's now. In the mean time, I'd always flashback to those days :) I am really thankful though. Really am. Besides God, my cousins are my foundation. I remember Eric asking that question on Saturday. I would say my cousins. I remember back then when each of us when through a certain phase. It touches me how we console each other. God, wow. I remember daddy telling me how he was close to his cousins last time but now ? hmm. I dont want that to happen for us. Sean's going back to the US next year? I remember asking him ' will you come back?' knowing that was where he was from anyways.

"It depends". Heck yeah, he'll come back. This I know. He will.

Best memories, in the car with all of us including Jenna and Jennifer. All cramped up inside. Winding down all windows and singing and waving at other people:) All the time.

Im really looking forward to Langkawi :) Five of us again. Since Krabi :)

Cousins are the best families.

My foundation.

Let your hair down :)

Flynn/Eugene

I know he's a cartoon character?

LOL

He's mine.

Dreaming out loud

Can someone tell me why am I dreaming about playing badminton again?
Really. I keep on dreaming about it.

Lord there is none like you.

I've been playing this song on the piano all day :D haha everyone's asking me whats up with the sudden urge to play church songs :D

Anyways, I've been having little fights with myself about choir. About whether I can take it up full time next year. I've seen how things can go wrong trying to keep things together for choir. Heck, I've seen how my seniors handle it for the past 4 years. I remember how this person told me that I can never be as good as the other presidents because Im the opposite of what they are. Im not as smart as all the past presidents. Really they're like really smart. Im probably not as strong in terms of handling pressure like how they do it.
But I will try to make myself as strong as how they are. For the sake of the people I've grown to love and known in choir, I will try.
I've had conversations with people closed to me about this. Believe or not? Majority asked me to hand down my post to someone else.
I was so close to making my decision to QUIT choir on that Sunday afternoon in AgroPark.
Right out in the open, YES I wanted to QUIT.
But then, I thought hey, dont make rash decisions now. Take some time and talk to God. I really did and just today? Playing The Power of Love on the piano? My prayer was answered :)

I've let down too many people in my life. Okayh maybe just one or two. But they mean a lot to me. Right now, Im not just gonna let down a whole lot of girls. No way. They look up to me. Gosh, I cant imagine telling Mellissa I quit. I cant see Ale's face letting her know I quit. All that talk I had with Joyce? I cant let her down. I cant let Jenna down. Commitment plays a big role right here. I will stay committed. I will. No matter how hard it'll be next year, I will stay committed.