cause some days stay gold forever :')

So the truth is I miss you.

So I guess today was our last ujian tara :') Well for me,Esther,Amreeta and Elysia. We're all in the same house, Dang Anum. I gotta admit it though, the five of us has got our love for Dang Anum :') yeeahh we do. Every year, ujian tara, we'd line up together and run run run. Halfway, either one of us will fall and start laughing our asses off until the finish line. In everything we do, everyone's like "this is our last ujian tara" "this is our last merentas desa" "this is our last that, this, that" I've been hearing a lot of that. Its kinda sad though. A little bit. Yeah, as much as I'll be really happy leaving this school, I'll definately miss something right? So yeah, the whole day today, I kept looking back on things when were still 13 or so. Look at us now :') IDK why I kept thinking about things back then, Rachelle keeps popping into my head :) Right now, though I see her everyday in school, I really miss you Rach :( I mean, I miss the talks we used to have. Everything. Idk what it was like for you, for me? Well, I just miss you a lot right now. I think I tell you all the time in school these days of how much I miss talking to you. Do I? Lol well, I remembering saying it to you. We're both so busy with things revolving around us, we havent got the time to sit and talk. And everytime we do have the time, well, it wasnt always at the right situation of things. I miss you woman :) Im pretty sure, you'll be reading this? HELLO :D haha. I may not know whats happening inside of you, Rach. When you're back, back home all alone. To yourself? Well I dont know much anymore because we seldom have time but hey, Im proud of you :)
I never had the chance to tell you that. Its pretty stupid how Im blogging about saying how proud I am of you. Lol but I just have a sudden urge to blog about this feeling. So yeah. Love you Rach :) continue to stay strong kayh? Im sure She's looking down at you everyday, looking out for you.

Again, first time today, I didnt sleep on my way home. The songs that came on on the radio got me to reminisce about my November and December. So yeah I was singing and smiling along to those memories :') I miss a lot of those days. But right now things are good :) and the good keeps coming bit by bit making my life a little brighter everyday.

and life is a road that I wanna keep going

I complain a lot and a lot. I always do. I pity my mom for listening to me sometimes. This whole weekend was great. I finally had a talk with mommy and daddy about college and other stuff. Finally, this time I didnt get upset because I usually get into a fight with my daddy about life after school ends. Got a cool book on world history :p spent my Saturday night at the archade with Frederick :) Church :)
spent quality time with Florence. Idk why? But Im being such a nice sister to her these past few days. Its not normal of me. Really. Idk a lot happened this weekend.
I always told people around me that good things happen to those who wait. I remember blogging about it. Here I am again, saying that good things happens in little bits of pieces and they fill up your life. Little bits of good things. Good things, great things. They were always there, Fran, you never opened you eyes big enough to realize. No matter how shitty things can get, they dont last forever. Never will. I've always told myself. Dont get your hopes too high. Never. I still believe in that and when you dont get your hopes up too high, things happen and trust me, you'll find yourself smiling.
Im thanking God right now, because He tought me how to appreciate. Forgive me please, if I still complain a lot. Hey, Im only human. Im never perfect. The best part of life, now, is realizing the little things and appreciating them.

She had my total respect towards her.

I first found out about her when I was 14. Felicia came home telling me about everything that happened in school. Her name was, Zainab, Pn Zainab actually. Honestly, I myself am not sure why I thought about her on my way home just now. She just came into my mind. She had a stroke that year in 2008. A really bad one, so as Felicia told me and she passed straight away. Once in awhile, back then, I used to go to the prasekolah after school sometimes, me and Khilda would go and help her out. She was also incharge of the school library. And again, Khilda and I always go there, well because they had really good books up there. I dont know how's it like now, but yeah. Most of my time spent with Khilda were also spent with that teacher. It never occured to me until just now that wow, she's was one of the nicest teacher I've ever had. A great educator in fact :') she tought us Science. Suddenly now, I miss her. I wonder how she's doing up there or wherever she is. Do people still think about her? Well obviously la. But wow 3 years ago and now only I really had a deep thought about her. She was so nice.

Fran, one year. Thats all it is. Well, not exactly one year but at least a few months and since its the last, do the best you can la. And in between these few months, awesome stuff will happen and because of that, it'll make 2011 worth memorable. Yeaaah.

We crossed the world while its asleep

Today was just another plain old normal Wednesday. Class,staybacks,tuition,home. Got called up for being sleepy again -.- lol feels kinda fun x) hah well, I've already got used to it. Im sleeping everywhere. Am I already that bad? Really. Tuition,canteen,standing up also I can sleep. What else during assembly, when everyone's standing and Im like the last of the last one sitting down with my head facing down. My sleeping habits are really on getting on some of the girl's nerves. I realized that. Owh today I realized, how awesome my classmates are. Although we're all different clicks, we still managed to get each other. Not bad compared to last year's :

Happy Valentines Day

Hmm it was actually a pretty good day. Started off the first few hours like that :)
Went to school, no scold from any teachers. Wow Monday. LOL. Nat sat next to me, since the other 2 didnt come. Saw frogs in the lab. Oh Nat had this cool sticky paper, she gave one to me and so I thought, hey lets do something for everyone. So I made little stickers for all of the girls. Nat said they looked like little iPhones application. Haha. First choir team practice. It waaas good. Came home, tuition. Slept in tuition. Got hit from Mr Selva twice for being sleepy. Amreeta got me chocolate, Loh gave me chocolate, dear dear Rachelle made me cupcakes and everyone else gave me hugs :) and since it was Valentines Day, dad said we should go out. Lol no nice place to makan in Seremban. I mean a proper din din kinda thing la. So we went to go watch The Green Hornet. FINALLY WATCHING :D
As usual I sat next to Fred and Daddy. All the DC movie trailers came out. Hellyeahhh Green Lantern x) and Ryan Reynolds's in it :) the whole time during the movie, dad's like
telling me this and that about Kato -.-" well
he used to collect lots and lots of comics when he was young. I find that fascinating though. Bruce Lee was the Kato back then and now its Jay Chou. Salutes to Jay Chou. He couldnt even speak English last time. Well he does now, only he sounds a bit like Peter Chao. 'Brack Beauty' hahahah. Good show good show

Oh dream maker, you heart breaker.

Had an okay day in church today :) Slept in class, makan makan with Esther, Judy and Joseph. LOL today's Y2Y was veeerry interesting. Laughing inside out the whole time. Calvin, Calvin pssh your bestfriend ahhhh. LOL.

Had dinner with the family again. Lucky Palace. Seems to me, we celebrated Valentines Day today during dinner. Honestly speaking, love was in the air. Practically the whole night, everyone was singing a little song for their little someone. Me and Darian, aiyaaa sing along la x) Sean cut his hair. Finally maaan. He looked like some mafia gangster before, now boleh tahan la. haha.

School tomorrow, long long day. Plus the 2 idiots not coming. Its alright, I'll spend my time bonding with the malay girls :) They're actually kinda fun. HAHHAHA.

Be nice with me okay Monday? Things are starting up again. Be nice.

Tomorrow's just another ordinary day.

I love this scene especially 1.47-2.33 :D

and with that Happy Chinese New Year.

cause Im just about to set fire to everything I see

Young and full of running,
tell me where is that taking me
just a great figure eight
or a tiny infinity.

Love is really nothing
but a dream that keeps waking me.
For all of my trying
we still end up dying;
how can it be?

I Swear This Time I Mean It

So I'll sing a melody :)

woke up to this song.

If You Wanted A Song Written About You All You Had To Do Was Ask

MAYDAY PARADE.

"And you dropped a note and we changed key, you changed yourself then I changed me, I really didn't see us singing through this. Then you screamed the bridge and I cried the verse and our chorus came out unrehearsed, and you smiled the whole way through it, I guess maybe thats whats worse."

Hello world.

I've been so busy, I havent updated much here.

Oh well, school pretty much the same.

Everyday the same stuff.

Entered the staff room most of the time.

I dont like that place.

Got a new Physics teacher.

The last one we had, always call me out for sleeping in class.

Finally today, the new teacher called me out.

Im used to it anyways.

Sleeping is a constant problem for me now.

Anyways, weekend. Finally right?

Hmm we had a meeting with the principle today.

Got me thinking again.

Wouldnt it be nice to feel that kind of happiness for once in my life?

I wonder how it feels like.

Never knew how it felt.

Boom x) my new habit, Boom.

Damn, I've been so busy with everything,

I think I lost touch on blogging.

As Im typing, Im constantly thinking what to blog about.

Owh well, when the feeling comes, it comes la.

Till then.

x

Im never gonna leave this bed.

Woke up this morning, didnt want to get up and leave me comfy bed :/ left home feeling shitty as hell. First time Felicia's following me to school. Reminds me of how things used to be when I was with Frederick. Hmm
Reached school. Walked down. Yeah people were looking at me like 'is that girl okay?' So yeah I was pissed this morning. In fact the whole day. The night before, informations came in. Like uhhh. Then went to school. Started la. Then this then that. Damn school suck like hell today. I pity Sofea man. I literally
showed anger sitting next to her in class and she was like 'chill Fran chill Fran' lol. Im sorry woman. Im so stressed up right now, Im letting my anger take over. Now thats really stupid and unprofessional of me. Then again, shit stuff happened after school hours. I stayed back until 5pm for no reason at all. Shit maaan. Shit. Plus, I thought Felicia went missing or something. *she's home safe and sound* lol. Got home. Got that text from Jenna about wanting to come watch us. Uhhh Im so sorry, we're not even ready at all. Damn.
Uhhhh. Tried to sleep it off. Then woke up to another text. That text really got me to slow things down. Thanks dear. Really.
But on the bright side, I got to be that sister again where I tried looking out for my sibling.
Primary, I looked out for Frederick and Felicia. The amount of boys who bullied Fred when he was 8 years old, wow I stepped in. Yeah little Fran against those boys. Hahha.Then secondary I was alone the whole way until this year, Felicia's here. Its been a while.

Let this go

So much for doing my homework. Well I did at first, but then I felt so shitty. So I wasnt thinking straight I suppose. Mom took one good look at me. Something's wrong with you dear. Then I told 'Mommy, I want to pray'. She knew something was really wrong with me. Lol Trust me, I am not holy but when times are rough, yes I do go to Jesus for help and guidance. Being the Fran I am, I was never good at controlling my emotions really.
and so we prayed for awhile. Mom next to me.
Then we talked. About problems,life, love and God. She really did opened my eyes on a lot of things. 'Fran, Im glad you said you wanted to pray' :') Mom grew up with the nuns. Practically explains how shes like on thing la. But Im glad though. We talked and talked. I look at the time. Lol screw it if I dont finish anything. At least Im at peace. You know, believing in something worth more than you are is really something unimaginable. I cant explain it. But believing has kept me sane. Really. Im such a small girl, lol but a lot of things can run through my mind at once. Its pretty dangerous, because a lot can happen.
Believe me, there were times, I wanted to do things. But hey, I am where I am right? He's got my back. He's got everyone elses. He is always there. You know sometimes when I get into convos about why people do such things in life. By ending it just like that? Hmm I dont think anyone understands how my mind really works? But damn I get why people do it. LOL dont get me wrong, I wont do anything like that. In a way, I get it. But then again why do it right? I mean you only live life once. So whatever happens, forget it and make things better for yourself. I mean nothing is worth ending your LIFE. My perspective, its either you understand a little bit of what Im trying to say or you'll go the total opposite of what Im trying to say. Get it?
Hmmph this night is bittersweet.
Again, Im little but weyy my minds thinking too much.

If you just realized what I just realized

Happy Chinese New Year peeps

Hows everyone doing huh?

Hmm this year's pretty much the same like the rest I suppose.

But I gotta say man, we've been gambling like mad people.

Literally every house, we go 'Hoi Toi'.

Winning and losing.

Owh well.

Gotta say Im pretty happy in between this and that.

I remember I used to say good things happen to those who wait.

Well yeah it does but sometimes you sort of wonder how long do you have to wait right?

Well as if right now, maybe the good things were always there or

maybe you dont have to wait for anything good, it comes unexpectedly I suppose?

and when it does appreciate it right?

Thats what I've realized when I started thinking back today.

No matter what right, Im one lucky ass girl.

Thank you Lord.

Aite then Happy Chinese New Year you awesome people :)

Late nights are my time x)

So here it is, Im sick and theres so much of yummy food at home

but I cant have them :/

On my late nights, I usually get really hungry.

Fran fran tskk.

So I've got a sudden inspiration to blog about my favourite snacks :)

Here it goes.

When Im sad, I love having gummy candies.

Chocolates are my all rounders :)

I have them all the time.

and since my aunt works under PATCHI, I get free chocolates all the time :')

My favourite chips :)

Gotta love Jelly Belly right?

and Famous Amos :)

owh owh Cadbury Creme Eggs are to die for x)

Havent had Foot Loops in a long long time but I still LOVE them :)

all in all I still love chocolate.

Thanks Bee for giving me Ferrero Rochers during Selva.

Thanks Potato for giving me chocolates most of the time when I dont expect anything.

Thanks Jo for the yummy gummy candies during recess.

Thanks Rach for sharing me a lot of Jelly Bellies.

Thanks Nat for the mints during class.

Thank you ku che for free chocolate x)

and Thank you mommy for bearing with me when I follow you to go

buy groceries because all I do is fill up the cart with chocolate :)

and to those who gave me yummy yummy food, I thank you.

#randompost

On our way home I realized

Today was good I suppose.

Did some cleaning up here and there.

Went to Uncle Soo's clinic and I saw yehyeh there.

'aiyoooo another Yeoh sick ahh?'

haha

Went out for a run with Hayley.

After 30mins of running around everywhere, I brought Hayley on a ride

with my bike and so she was on the basket :)

I brought her to my favourite place.

Cycled to every Taman.

Although I live in a malay area, I gotta say I love the places around here.

Everytime I go out for cycling Im sure to bummed into someone I know.

Little Hellos and Goodbyes.

Brought Hayley to the field where most my friends play football there.

She got a lot of attention there.

hahah

Good evening.

I hear your heart call for love.

introducing The Wanted :)