Alex Goot

Shine on shine on onto a better place.

Alright so this weekend turned out pretty nice for me. Drove on Saturday. Dinner with the whole family. Everyone came home to celebrate jie's 25th. Found out about his girl loving PARAMORE :) Totally spent the whole night lying on bed singing our hearts out. I think he's pretty happy that we're slowly making her feel at home. Penang girl she is.

Sunday was well unexpected right? #gladyoucame

Had our last class today. Today's class was different. We're all singing along and stuff. Teachers gave out their little talks. That video. Today was something different. I know I'll miss class.

Next Sunday, we're getting our certs. Then yeah we graduate? Hah yes.

KFC. HAHAH stupid rain. Drove again. Tomorrow's that day ey? I hope I'll pass though. No guarantees :p LOL

Till then, next Sunday and the days to come after..

oh pssh

cant believe I fell for it again.

Quite a number of times ady.

I think the first one was Sam's party last year?

from then onwards till what?

More to come?

HAHAHA

Loving every moment of it though.

Liar, you are ;)

Singing someday it'll bring me back to you.

I still get a glimpse of this night once in a while.

Somewhere in that crowd, we're singing along :)
Realized something today.
and imy.

It would actually be really cool to own at least one of these as necklaces :')

Excuse me for all of my sudden Harry Potter hype. Last movie coming up soon.

Yesh Im pretty hyped up.

#HARRYPOTTER FTW

Something to look forward too. Till then, October.

so solid now you're like water

What a friend right? Next time I should think twice before letting anyone sit next to me. She conteng on my Maths book. My deskmate so bad :(



Studying in my parents room because its quiet. Knowing me, I'd go searching for things. Came across these pictures. Florence & Francisca. For some reason, we stick like glue and paper although pretty much these days, all she ever does is annoy me. But yah, my childhood days were great. Imagination was the source of our laughter.

For some reason I dont feel it yet. I do have the urge to rush tryna finish things up? But camp's tomorrow? Doesnt quite feel like it. Hoping for the best, expecting the worst.

#fingerscrossed We're almost there and almost done.

Gosh after seeing this, I bet you for sure that's all I'll ever think when I'd answer a question.

HARRY POTTER FTW :D

you know.

Here's a post about my two weeks of holidays. Well it started off with that Saturday in church procession. Then class on Sunday. Time Square. Then well everything died off. I got sick in between. Stoned at home. Everyone, was so busy that it was only me and Florence at home alone on most of the days. Studied? Dont get me started on that. Penang on the weekends. Still sick so it wasnt much for me but paintball was great. I've been paintball-ing since I was 13 and never in my life had I done that in a PARKING LOT. That's right, Penang and it had the best battle arena I have ever set my eyes on. They provide full suits too. One day, I have gotta bring my friends there. We'd have a blast. After the weekends. Again. Stone at home. What did I do? Wake up. Piano. TV. Music. Eat. Sleep at 6am and back all over again the next day. Really I was so bored I didnt even want to do anything. Planned some stuff out but it didnt happen. I'll admit it, I was pissed. Anyways things work out unexpected. I receive a text from Rach about Friday. Really unexpected. So I thought hey, I have nothing to do, why not. It great day it was. Well I'd say SPONTANEOUS. We walked from Tesco all the way to Jusco. Bought whatever we needed. We even watched POTC. Well luckily enough he was there too. Saw Dyy and Judy.I really wished I could have seen Sofea during the holidays. I didnt get to see her at all :(

Well Saturday's plan which was today, was just bbq-ing at Sean's for Father's Day. Just so happens Felicia said she decided to go to Tess's after the dinner. Tess asked to tag along. Though I didnt think I should? Idk it was more of Felicia's thing. Felt like I was intruding her space? But well she said I should go since Ely's there. And well maybe I'd go there just for another side reason? :)

Well, I went anyways. #truthbetold Im really glad I came.

It wasnt much but hey, you know, I know.

Tonight was interestingly funny though. If I could ha

ve seen your experessions on how frustrated you were trying to figure out who your mystery person is? Haaah I'd have a good laugh about it. So tomorrow's Sunday. Honestly, my last day of proper freedom. even just for a little while, while Im at Jusco.

That day went we went out to Time Square. Before mom dropped me off exactly on that morning. She finally told me. Fran this is your last hangout. I was actually waiting for The day where she would finally put down her point and tell me straight. Because I know her. She's the kind of mom thats always the inbetween of things. She lets me go freely but she knows how to pull me back in to control me. So yeah I was waiting for that spe

cific day when she would tell me to STOP. I get it and I respect her decisions. So probably on that day, I was spacing out, well that was because I realized like hey, my so called 'last day' of oh yah sure lets hang out my mom wont mind me going out kindof thing. Well that day turned out fine.

Again last night she said I know you love 30 Seconds To Mars fran? But you cant. You cant keep doing this. Plus I promised dad.

I havent been entirely honest to myself. I still cant grasp the fact that Im sittin for fuggin SPM. Its not like my life depends on it. Really. I just gotta do good enough to score enough so I could enter a proper college that'll help me score a good job in the future. Hey you still gotta score something to take on a subject thats good. Its not just money ya know. You actually have to have the qualities and capabilities. A very fine example. HIM. He's a rich ass boy who's got his parents throwing money at him whenever he wants it. He's got MONEY. But he's hasnt been doing well in college at all. He's already spent 2 years+ in college when he could have spend a year and head of to the USA just because his dad got him money to pay for whatever he needs. But his grades for his assignments werent good enough, he's staying here for another idk how long.

Anyways, I've been going out, having fun while most ppl I

know are staying home and studying -.-' I go out because I dont want to spend my time thinking about studies. Stressful really. Coming from a girl where her mom's a respectable teacher.

But I owe it to mommy really. Her especially. She doesnt show it but I know I let her down bigtime. Wont it be great just to see her finally smiling so happily when she sees me with results that'll make her absolutely proud of me? I'd like to see that. I'd like to see her smile while Im smilling back at her too.

Here it goes towards the starting of the second semester. Till after SPM. Right then, I would spend most of my time treasuring everything I have before everyone leaves. Before you leave.

#knowingyouwouldreadthis

Usually I'd smile away with that song.

Tonight, it was the first time I cried listening to yellow.

We dont have much time anymore do we?

ITS NOT POLITE TO POINT

Good movie. Though I expected a little more? But yeah good enough. How Professor X met Raven and became so close when they were young? How Professor X met Magneto. How I saw the first making of that Cerebro by the one and only Beast?! Beast!! How Beast turned into well, Beast himself. Havok was here. Cyclops's younger brother. Literally I was like 'gosh Frederick Lucas Till as Havok?!' *allsmiles* Basically I loved the part where they'd train and slowly they tried to find other mutants. Pretty cool to watch Professor X and Magneto when they were, well as they are in the movie. Younger. How everything was formed? Brotherhood of Mutants. How they finally came into terms of splitting. How Raven choose to follow Magneto. How Professor X got into a wheelchair. The basic stuff. Oh well yah. XMen First Class.

Dakota Condor.

I swear that scene where she kept on saying

that she'll wear that bike bell around her neck until

she finds the bike theif and she'll chop off their head

and play football with their head?

Im telling you.

Her face expression was OHSOOOSCARY

*goosebumps*

Still havent watched D:

All I know I still got mountains to climb on my own.

Okay so heres my outcome.

Been in a mode for quite sometime.

Well its a Fran thing.

Gradually I stopped.

I did. I found ways to push these things aside.

But then, knowing me, I'd start up again.

Its early June now right? So probably a month or so, I realized

me pushing things aside would build up another something.

LOL I am such a complicated individual.

To you, maybe not? But at least I think I am.

Im the kindof person where I think stuff.

Cry about it and I wont tell anyone.

Not because of anything really. I just dont have the mood to explain it all

over again. So I close up. My little friend Sofea, would know the drill.

She never asked what, she always gave in on what to do about it.

Somehow, it'll fit in just right to make me normal just for a while.

Like you said, no one can change the way you feel except YOU.

Thanks sof.

Anyways, my normal routine.

When in doubt.

Stay up late and either watch The Final Riot! or seasons of

any TV series. Grey's Anatomy, always was the

best choice. Then I'd be okay again.

People always worry for me. Always.

Sometimes yes, I worry about myself but really?

Most of the time, no matter what state Im in, no

matter how bad it is. Honestly, the last thing I would worry about, is myself.

I know I always frown everywhere I'd go.

People always ask.

As usual, I wont say anything.

I know I complain a lot. Well because those are my general thoughts.

I complain and it may seemed as though I dont appreciate people or things

around me. But heck no, although I complain, it doesnt mean I mean what I say.

If you dont know me, then you wont know.

I do appreciate.

When I frown, deep down in my thoughts I do say thank you Jesus.

and sometimes, just by a random reason, if anyone were to

pass by in front of me and if I were to be in my thinking mode,

for some reason, I'd pray over that person.

As I watch everyone around me.

I see people. Unhappy ones and happy ones.

I pray for them.

Yea yea who am I to judge. Admit it, we all judge people dont we?

As much as I hate the word 'judge' I know I judge too.

Damn you Fran, Im a little lost on what Im blogging about.

I confuse myself a hell lot. But its okayh.

Though I say I hate this attitude of mine, I gotta admit it,

I find it kinda funny as much as it annoys me.

Blogging this bit of me doesnt make you think you'd know everything about me okay?

Its just another tiny bit of the every so complicated Fran.

As much as I hate feeling like this on days to come? Damn its good for me in a way too.

The moment I woke up this morning, I knew what was coming for me.

Right at the same time, I knew that by the end of my night, before I'd sleep,

I'd realize again and I'd laugh at myself for realizing YES I AM STUPID.

Oh yes, I bet whoever's reading this particular post, well if theres ever anyone who reads it I mean. HAHAHA I think people would think Im on the verge of being crazy. Trust me,

I once thought I was too. But damn man, this is part of me. LOL Im crazy.

Seriously, I think Im scary. Well, today Im sure.

I know a little part of what Fran is. I know what my thoughts can do to me.

I know how to push them aside. I know how to conquer them.

and no matter how bad things are for me which, no one would know

because I dont tell anyone anything anyways, I'll be okay.

By the end of the day after I come out of my shell, I'll laugh at myself

realizing things. I learn a new something about me everytime shit happens.

Its life. Shit happens.

But dude, I know havent experienced life. So yeah dont tell me

'this is just a small part, wait till you're done with college, thats life'.

Um hello? I know I havent experienced life yet. I know what you're trying to tell me. But really,

I know what you're trying to say and I know how immature I can be with my thoughts. Dont

give me advices unless I know, you know I need them. All I need is for you or whoever to

listen when I do feel like saying something.

People always say that if a girl say she's okay means she's not okay.

Well, Im the kind where okay wait, Im a girl too. So sometimes when I say Im okay, Im not

okay. But sometimes when I say, Im okay, Really I am okay.

So dont worry about me. Im good.

I feel guilty for people who worry but at the same time, hey at least they're thinking

about me right? LOL

Anyways, its 6.10 am so its a Wednesday.

Im suppose to be waking up in an hour or so.

But Im still up and yes, Im wide awake.

Grr Im in a desperate urge to go out and watch a movie.

pssh jealous of everyone I am.

Before school reopens, IDC how? I HAVE to go out and watch at least something.

Dont judge me please, I know Im weird and Im smiling about it.

See? Im losing it. Hahah

Hey Im okay.

That's just it.

:)

MONSTER X)

So I woke up this morning feeling well, not in the mood I suppose.

Sick too. argh

Anyways, we went to KL as dad promised we would.

Shopped like mad x)

I used to be a really bad shopaholic, really.

But I've managed to stop

that habit but once in a while

when I feel like I need the urge to? Then yes, I'll go all out knowing my limits

ofcourse. Okay, dont give me that look okay? What? Im a girl.

Every girl loves shopping right? ;)

I wished I could have attended Y2Y's Camp this year. Well its going on right now as

Im blogging. I've been looking forward towards this camp date since early

this year. Really was. Got quite upset when I found out I couldnt go.

Well, I have my reasons.

Leaving for Penang tomorrow. Another family trip.

Something to smile about.

Im the only one right now who's been MIA with everyone back home.

So seeing everyone tomorrow would be

really refreshing.

MONSTER :')

Oh how Im such a proud fan of Paramore.

Always was a loyal fan since Day 1.

I cant wait for their album release. Should be around summer maybe.

I'll go to Penang and annoy every with my voice singing Monster.

HAHAHAH

I'LL STOP THE WHOLE WORLD FROM TURNING INTO A MONSTER.