Planned to blog a post on this very year. FAILED.

But hey.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

and here's to the future.

I was going through my posts on April and found this.

Imy.

What can you say? You're gonna have a good day.

Started off early morning with let downs.

At the end of the day, Im just glad I got to see my twin and well, Elysia.

Brought the siblings out for dinner just now. Parents wanted to stay home.

Did a little catching up with Jeffrey for awhile just now and he's better now.

Halfway COD-ing, Darian decides to whatsapp me.

Well, for now until he comes back. THIS IS HOW WE DO IT.

HAHHAHAHA

Im missing you boys so much man. All of us are.

and I got to know that Sean brought over that huge card I made for him :')

I miss the two of you so much.

And, your spark never lit up a fire
Though I tried and tried and tried
The wind came through your lungs
A hurricane from your tongue
I'll keep your secrets with me
Right behind my teeth

Today's the day I am going to get BLACK FABRIC PAINT and do some justice.

FRUIT BY THE FOOT

You see that there?

Yeah thats it.

The candy I grew up to eating everyday.

Well, used to until they got harder to find.

Still is my TOP MOST FAVOURITE one of all.

Really really glad I found it.

Honestly, I really am.

FRUIT BY THE FOOT

Partly this whole week, I've been looking at the calendar counting the days I have left constantly. Just constantly counting and counting. Im really still in that moment of realizing how fast this year just flew past just like that and I think Im starting to annoy some people because I keep on saying that. But oh well.

So christmas was last Sunday. It was a good day with the family. Though this time, Christmas was different but we all made it worked in our on way. The day after Christmas was spent with Sofea. We did our little spontaneous outing and it was great. She stayed over and yeah the next day again, we did our thing. Went to Sonia's Christmas party and honestly, it was really great to see some people again especially Amreeta and Bernie. I havent seen these two since the last day of SPM. Really, that is sad. I miss seeing a lot of people right now. Patiently waiting to see my twin on the 30th. This year's New Year's Eve, we'll be BBQ-ing at yehyeh's, it'll be good.

Right after that night or maybe the morning after, Jennifer's going to take me back to Puchong.

I'll be working, yes and will be coming back ONLY on the weekends until I get my results. No complaints Fran, because you already got what you need and that is your break for your Christmas holiday. Really dont know what to expect in the year 2012. As I always say, concertwise, NEXT YEAR WILL BE GREAT. Other than that, Its for me to find out.

Dear friend, I'd like to thank you. For everything. Truth be told, those times we'd hang, really it gives me reassurance on well, things. I know I dont tell you much but you know its just

*that feeling you cant explain. You do know what I mean.

So much love for the people around me.

Cheers to the last few days of 2011.

There Goes Our Brother.

This one's for my dear dear cousin Sean.

Been doing things together eversince we were kids. Finally realizing that hey, we are growing up. This is his time now, to go back home in New Jersey and pursue his dreams. Its obvious that he'll be back. We await for your return.

So its been a pretty busy week I'd say. It wasnt much of time spent with him but it was good quality time. I remember bringing up the topic on him leaving, He'd hit me and say lets not make this any harder for any of us. I know I know people are like He's only leaving its not like you wont see him anymore. I get it lah okay but its not that. Its something else.

Another thing was that. He left not telling me about something and it can only be him who's suppose to tell me. How am I suppose to help push the other fella up when you're not around this time huh? I cant do this alone Sean. You know how much I need you in this. But I know, things are going to be okay for him, you said so. Things will turn out okay. Takes time.

Last night's sleepover was more of just being together and just talking. I know for sure as much as Darian wont admit it, he'll miss you so much and Jeffrey's going to need to cope with not having you around. Frederick? Well, him too. Then theres me. It had always been the five of us. It was a thing in this family "oh those five monkeys".

The send off got Everyone crying. I could see it in Ah Pak's eyes he just didnt want to do it infront of Sean. Mom said he let it all out in the car on the way back to 494. Halfway doing our flash mob prank in the middle of the airport, my mom comes in crying on Sean's shoulders and that made me started and did not stop. Breakfast was quiet for some of us.

They got into customs. Waved and yelled out our I love yous and goodbyes.

The drive home with Jeff and Fred was nothing but silence and tears.

"Fran, right now its the three of us and until Darian comes back, it'll be slightly better okay"

"Okay gorr". Then out of no where, the radio played Dont Worry Be Happy by Bobby McFerrin and the three of us just smiled at each other.

I think thats probably it for now. Yes, its going to be okay.

Im missing you already Sean. Much love from me and everyone left here.

Almost there :)

Been having talks on the world out there. My morning drive back home with dad this morning. I guess we sort of had our moment. He told me that its always okay to go all the way out there. Far away from everyone to do what you want. Not to fill in on people's needs. But always remember where you come from once you're out there. Always remember home. Your loved ones. Ones that matter. No matter how far you're away or how hard things may get. If things arent meant to be, its alright. Because one day..

One day what D?

You know what Im saying right Fran?

Yes I do.

You're growing up girl, Ily.

Ilyt daddy :')

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU.

Told you I'd get you back someday.

Seems to me, the 9th of December was the perfect day to do so.

You know and I know.

:')

Current update. Been working with aunt and cousin sis at J.Rossette. Fingerscrossed on their next franchaise next year. Anyways I plan on stopping Tuesday onwards. As much as I've grown to get comfortable with the life there, I dearly miss the people back home. Im not a full time worker anyways so none of that whole thing matters now. It was just to help her out and satisfy what everyone wanted me to do. Please ku jie, let me go. But the experience is well worth it I guess. I dont know, I came back home here with a different perspective on life. Not sure how to explain it? But its all in my thinking head.

Sean's leaving real soon. I NEED time with him. Before he goes and he knows that I wont take this so easily. Partly because, you were ALWAYS there for me Sean. You'd know it the moment you see me like that at times. Always did look up to you man. Proud of you and of what you've become. That girl you'll meet out there one day is going to realize what a man you are. You deserve someone better and appreciates you as much as you do to her. I'll never forget what you told me that night you checked on me when we stayed over :')

Left home the day after SPM. Right now, I have this whole list of things I planned on doing. Needs. When I do get back, I'll make time for all of it.

This one goes to the two of you. I know things havent been good at all between the 3 of us. It hasnt been for a VERY long time. I know its really complicating the way how things go right now. We've got our own issues with each other. At times, I know I tend feel like giving up on the whole thing. But really, you know I would NEVER do so. Cant say as much because well yeah, we know it ourselves. Please. That'll all Im saying. Please.

Anyhoo, its been a long day. Tomorrow, time with family. It'll be a great weekend.

Heyho Im back. Well sort of. Been posting vids after vids and stopped blogging for quite some time. I'd blog right now, but it just doesnt feel so right blogging whats on my mind for now. One thing though, SCHOOL IS OVER FOR GOOD :D wouldnt say that school was the worst place on earth, because school was great man, for me at least. In time to come, I'll write again as always.

Happy holidays everyone.