Do you remember December?

Happy December everyone :)
Have you really realized how time has just passed by so fast? Well I did today. On my way to Malacca, I kept thinking about what I did this whole year. I teared a bit :')
yehyeh's 79 now. He's still strong. Taking down those durians behind his backyard. Still driving around town buying this and that. I remembered just celebrating yehyeh and mama's 50th anniversary last year? Or was it 2 years ago? 2010's coming to an end. So fast ey? The look on yehyeh's face just now as I was the first to go through the glass door. He was so happy to see me :') Im happy to see him. How he raised me together with mama when I was so young. Look at him now, being sick all the time. Fainting all the time and now he's got this device in him to help pump his heart if it stops beating again? Again?
Uncle David was so insistent on making yehyeh go for the operation for that device thing. He was so insistent. Many people I know have taken that device thing for their heart. The side effects are not good. They only last up for a year or so. Then what? What if it doesnt work no matter how hard it pumps? What if? ILY yehyeh :')


hmm I remember it was only last year when we started selling flowers for our confirmation funds. I remember feeling so excited because its all only beginning to start. All the parents combining. All the students knowing each other more. Wow. Look at the time. Theres no more of that now. Sales are over. Media Camp's over. Confirmation camp's over. Pretty soon next year, classes are over. I'll miss you guys. Hell yeah we'll still bump into each other in church but it'll be different you know. Things will change. Thats just the way it is. I dont mind if things change because they will no matter what. Its just a little hard knowing that things will change and maybe people like me, would like to stay here. The way things are. Stay here and not move forward for awhile. Let time freeze. Cherish it enough then move forward. Hahah if only right?

One more month until next year. One more month until a whole new year of challenges.

I love my decembers :) they're usually always nice and good. I cant wait to go back to Sabah :)

Last moments before camp ended.

Apparently Im still blogging about camp because Im still feeling the need to blog. After that long post below this one? LOL

You know, there are some people who are just simply caring. Its very thoughtful. Really.
And there are people who may seem very bright on the outside but they're probably the most broken hearted one around. Not in the sense of that stupid boyfriend girlfriend thing but in the sense of not having been loved by their loved ones as much as others have been loved.

During our last eating session together while listening to Sister and Teacher Eli about whats going to happen when we see our parents later on? Obviously, everyone was in tuned to what they had to say. I took some time looking around. And the faces I saw of those outgoing ones, I wasnt surprised. Took one good look at that boy. He knew I was looking directly at him. He let me look. So I did. Just one smile was enough to let him know. There were many of the same around.

Those hugs all of you gave me. I really appreciated it. Really. I did. Thank you so much everyone for making this camp better because from the starting I'd never thought I'd see myself here being this way now.

I am strong when I am on your shoulder 2010

CONFIRMATION CAMP 2010

I remember feeling not excited at all a day before camp. I was complaining about how much I didnt want to go. I didnt feel anything. When to church at around 2.10pm and I was still feeling moody. Got into the same bus with all the girls and I was in the same room with Sonia and Nat :) Good enough I thoought.There was this game called 'Martin Says'. I remember grinding the whole time when MJ kept saying he's going to win but I was like hah I'll prove you wrong tonight. Here's why. The evening I went to Matthew Bates's house? Well before I left, he sorta told me something about something MJ's gonna do for Confirmation Camp. Matt said he would play 'Martin Says' and when he starts? He'll ask everyone to stand and that I should sit down. Well I did sit down. Honestly, I was one of the slowest to stand up. Why did I stand? Because MJ looked at me as if 'ehh dey something wrong with her' LOL. So I stand la and the moment I stand, I told Nat ' Nat, I think we should sit because he didnt say MJ Says.' Nat was like 'aiya not yet started la' but then I was thinking about what Matt told me that day. Then suddenly "I TOLD YOU I WON ALL OF YOU" said MJ. That was when I went 'DAMNIT' I should have sat down. HAHAHAHH.

Moving on,I was pretty much negative on the first day. Even when we all met Martin Jalleh. I was sitting down, in front there, not really laughing at his jokes on the first night. I knew MJ realized something about me. Not being perasan or anything but I sensed it. Anyways, MJ got me laughing like hell when he used me as an example as 'Mary (me)' when the angel came down and said that I got pregnant, "Praise the Lord" HAHAHA. Anyways the second day was more of me being reflective since I couldnt sleep the night before, I did some thinking la. I remembered the water balloons thingy :) that was really funny. That night, everyone had to rush to go shower. The girl's toilet was packed so Sonia and I decided to go play basketball with Cal and Amos. Little did I know, I cut myself with Amos's nametag. LOL. I have a bandage on my pinky now :)

Before going for Confirmation Camp, I remember hearing all the past senoirs telling me that it'll be the best camp ever. That I'll cry so much and I'll go home feeling different. On the starting of the camp, I was already doubting what they told me. But in the end, they were right. Everyone said Saturday night would be the highlight of the camp. Inner Healing it was called.

Lights were switched off and we were all seperate at a distance in the dark. Music played and there on the wall, Jesus on the cross. Feeling so vulnerable. MJ started talking. The more he did, the more I cried. I put myself into the words he used. I needed to ask for forgiveness. I needed to forgive. I needed to be thankful,to feel God's love. I was always the one who caused everything. I was always the one to hurt. It was always me. Then only did I realized that God knows what I've been going through. That he went through so much more than I did. I realized that I always blamed myself for everything that happened. I took everything into account. I realized that I've hurt others and that others have hurt me. Everything was there, right in my head and MJ was saying it all out. I've never cried that hard with people around me. I've never cried that hard. I've never felt more thankful than before. Everything. I felt it there. Happiness, peace,sadness, anger. I felt it all. I've never felt so different. It was as if really, God was there. He was. I know Im not usually the holy one and all but really, I felt His presence and that was what amazed me a lot. Its really funny how I can think about my past hurts and not cry anymore eversince camp ended, because I always cry when those thoughts come up in my mind. I feel so at peace. I'll always continue to pray that whatever happened that Saturday night will continue to make me a better person. Why? Because my whole aim for this camp is for me to change and become a new me. A more positive one. I remember hugging Esther and Sonia. I remember hugging everyone else. Crying in the dark, hearing other people's pain. I could hear Ezra's cry. It was the time to let go. It was the time for all of us I suppose. Sister Theresa came up to me and prayed over me. The more I cried. It was a beautiful night. It really was.

After that, we had mass. Yes it was a mass late in the night. Pretty much my first. Then after that, we all played uno and sang to the songs Cal played on his guitar. Stupid Abel was running around with a cricket in his hand. A cricket I tell you. Wrote letters before going to bed :')

Next day was pretty much laid back. A talk on sex edu by MJ? LOL. Makan makan and singing songs :') I teared up to every single song we sang the whole 3 days. Really I did. The Power of Love. That was beautiful and then came to You Raise Me Up. That song reminded me of mom and dad. I couldnt helped but cry throughout the whole song and the fact that we had to sing it in front of our parents? I didnt want them to see me crying. I did cry anyways. Standing there on that stage with all my close friends around me. We cried and sing together. Holding each other's hands and just being there for each other, we cried.

Mommy came. It was good :) I remember walking towards her and just crying on her shoulder

telling her how sorry I was. I couldnt stop saying sorry. I just cried. I felt really good after everything though. Walked around the hall hugging some parents and my friends. Hugs. Then right before I left the hall. I went up to Martin. Gave him a hug and said thank you. The things he told me at that moment. I'll never forget. He is one of them and people like him are so rare these days because they can see through you, how you are really feeling. Thank you Martin.

Thanks guys for writing me letters:) I really appreciate them. Your letters brought humour and sense of love to me :) ILY you guys :')

Thank you parents committee for everything. Really.

Thanks Es, for walking with me.

Thank you everyone.

Its not the funnest camp ? But it was the most spiritual and beneficial camp I've ever been too.

BTW we made some new friends from the chinese section side eh? ;) hahaha

*pokes Sonia*

#nowplaying Turn It Up-Pixie Lott

I hate my moodswings -.-

Home videos:)

Heard from Aunty Caroline and Uncle Kenneth. They're playing home videos after having din din tomorrow night. I love home videos :") This particular video they're playing will be when I was at the age of 3. I remember they took a video of me dancing to a Tenacious D song. Hardcore wey. I didnt even know. Home videos:) Gotta get myself a camcorder later in life. It'll be nice to capture some moments on camera and watch it back whenever you want to. Damn I wont be there to watch with it everyone tomorrow. They're all coming back.

Happy Birthday Uncle Kenneth :)

Click

Realized its also the same guy? haha

white chicks (a thousand miles)

Hahaha this never gets old XD

Bulletproof Heart - My Chemical Romance (Lyric Video)

#nowplaying Who Said Anything About Falling In Love-The Hoosiers

Who said anything about falling in love,
lost my mind when I surrendered
everything to find your in love,
This is my mistake cuz
who said anything about falling in love
in love, in love.

I know I know
that your just being kind
but it's giving me a false hope,

I know I know
that I only need a little
just a little bit of false hope,

I know I know
that am only seeing what I want ta,
(whooaahhh)

Who said anything about falling in love,
lost my mind when I surrendered
everything to find your in love,
This is my mistake,

the orange hope

random post.

But I'd say whoever drew that?

wow

#wishlist

It was always my dream to go there one day.

:)

song for the night.

and we're caught up in the crossfire

0f heaven and hell

and we're searching for shelter

lay your body down

lay your body down

lay your body down

BackStreetBoys alright !

American Music Awards 2010

Boybands. They are back :)

IMThem.

Always singing to their songs with my cousins:)

Those were the days.

and you're keepin secrets on your pillow

My room. Its where I am at my most vulnerable.

Although I share it, I spend most of my time up there recently.

We havent been talking for days. Our conversations are always just the usual ones.

Of all people, dad noticed me being this way. Daddy.

He came up to me after dinner. Just sat there where I was. He knew I knew.

It was good enough.

Im trying to pick up the pieces. Im trying to gain back your trust. Because for some reason, I see it in your eyes, that I've lost your trust. You're always checking up on me now. It upsets me how you cant trust me as much anymore. I'd cry thinking about it. I have been crying thinking about it.

It seems to me, everytime I try, you only see the mistakes I make in trying to make things better.

I know whats ahead of me next year. I know. But all this pressure building up on me isnt helping me at all. You know I cant deal with too much pressure. You know what it did to me last year.

I understand why you have to tell me. I do. I know its important. The thing is, I never really knew how fragile I am.

I remembered why I liked Group Lessons again.

Spent my whole day at Hui Piano.

17 instruments :)

I played that one.

Airplanes was playing :)

HAHHAA

Had a great time :)

Teenage Dream!

LOL

#nowplaying Crossfire-Brandon Flowers

A Sadness Runs Through Him

I am still hunting for this album :(

I've got the other but the new one is not as good as this one.

THE HOOSIERS :)

Im still a loyal fan :)

invisible and indivisible

That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet

Visions so insane
Travel unraveling through my brain
Cold when I am denied it
Your light is ultraviolet

Ultraviolet

I love singing this part of the song :)

page 936

FIRST READING

tomorrow.

Its my first time :)

Its also a little scary though.

All eyes on me.

HAHAH

He's a keeper :)

Oliver Wood.

I cant wait to see you back on screen :)

#nowplaying Ultraviolet-Stiff Dylans :D

lock the door cuz I'd like to capture this voice

Honestly, I dont think I've noticed how much I've changed. Not until a few days ago.
She wanted me to quit choir. Choir. Thats how badly I've been doing.'I want to know whats in your head thats causing you to be this way'. The worst part is that I used to be so closed to her. Im constantly making that gap bigger. Thats why, she doesnt know. But then I've tried explaining all the stuff thats been in my head. I tried. We always ended up fighting. Im not your little girl anymore. Im not that little girl who used to be so hardworking anymore. Im not who I was 4 years ago. Have I just noticed that? It took me so long. And now, Im like this pile of nothing. Literally. Its hard because I dont know whats becoming of me. Im not suicidal, duh. LOL. Im just a mess right now. Did I just spent my whole night last night thinking? Im a dissapointment. You'd probably think, she's just being negative about herself? But no, what I was back then, and now. I've changed. Maybe not on the outside, but mentally. I know I have. Haha its pretty stupid how Im constantly emo-blogging these days right? Haha.
I can explain whats going on with me? But no one could ever understand truly. But I know I need to let it out. Thats the way it goes to keep yourself sane. I think. But then again,
I've practiced that 'im okay' for too long. Its hard because I used to tell you everything. Thats what's so sad now. I miss that. I miss you.
You know, being where I am now, I was always told to be the better one. But sometimes its gets a little rough. Its hard because the bar standard too high for me to reach. Being the person I am, I understand why I need to be better than what I am now.
The pressure's always there. People may not understand or know, but theres always something there thats already set for me and everytime I dont do as Im expected to, the mistakes I make, the choice I make, the people I hang with becomes their reason why I dont do good. Its not always nice to hear things like that. Still I listen then go up and keep to myself. I wasnt like this. I dont want people to see me like this. Im not blaming anyone. Im not complaining. Its just what I feel. Its what thats in my head.

Its times like this that I've gotta think about everything and re-evaluate myself. Its time I start making things better myself. Its time I start pushing myself. Its the time where I should be optimistic. Because I've been a pessimist for too long.

Playing God

Paramore.

Yeah Im such a big big fan.

I remember watching

Ignorance

The Only Exception

Brick by Boring Brick

Careful

on their released premier:)

Guess what?

I've just watched Playing God :)

Might I say, I love her new pink hair :)

Theres a little bit of Brick by Boring Brick and Ignorance in the new mv.

Next time you point your finger, I'll point you to the mirror.

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone

A little better now:)

The Final Riot!

I get to see my Jeremy Davis :) HAH

God I love that crowd.

I was once in it :')

Katy Perry's number one fan :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

NATASHA LIM LI HUEI :)

one of the best since std6

(dog magnet)

Im sorry I cant make it for KL.

Next time okay?

Happy Birthday you :)

a wide smile across my face. literally. LOL

One Direction.

ahhhh :D

#nowplaying Miserable At Best- Mayday Parade

#nowplaying Every Road-The Maine

Its so nice that people are finally starting to notice them.

its not always rainbows and butterflies, its compromise that moves us along

Im tired. I dont know why. For the past few days I've been like this. I sleep late. Wake up with nightmares and because of that? I wouldnt be able to go back to sleep until maybe around 9am close to 10am. Then wake up again around noon for brunch. I'll tell myself 'lets do something productive today' and obviously I wont. All I hear is complaints about me being the way I am now. Then I'd make up my own reasons to defend myself. LOL. But then since yesterday, I found no reason to say anything. Literally, I've been quiet. Just too quiet. I'd play the piano when I feel like shit? But now everytime I touch the keys, I get all irritated. I dont know why. Then I'll play halfway and storm off. I finally finished reading a book today. Finally. Then I thought to myself again. Thinking about the times where I used think too much. I stopped for awhile. But its starting to build up again. I remember wanting to tell somebody about something. Then I gave up, cause that negative thought came back on. I've all this pressure on me about this and that and this and that. Okayh you'd probably think 'what pressure do you have la? you're just 16, dont push yourself too much' The thing is, yeah I am 16 but being the person I am, I am like this. No point in explaining what kind of person I am anyways. Hmm then I got myself thinking again. What am I to the people I love? (I mean everyone). Not that its anyone's fault on anything , its just that I always have that negative part of me. All my life, I've known to be pretty pessimistic. You know sometimes, when you're being there for someone in need? And they tell you, you dont understand? Yeah I may not understand what you're going through, I mean I do, but not in the way you see it. Cause then every individual has got their own mindset. But this I understand, life's not all about you. There are people everywhere in the world thats got life worse then yours. So appreciate it. But now I feel like a hypocrite, because Im complaining about mine right?

how deep is your love

Happy 17th Anniversary

Mommy&Daddy

I was born a year after they got together:)

LOL

cry cry cry in the lonely night thinking

I always tell people that they are crybabies?

HONESTLY

Im more of the crybaby.

I cant look at people cry, cuz then I'll cry too.

LOL

This post is random.

I go back to December all the time

#nowplaying Back To December-Taylor Swift

Currently Im addicted to this.

But then right, its about Taylor Lautner -.-

Anyways it got me thinking,

the fact that sometimes I can read across people about

how they feel or think about?

Honestly speaking, I cant figure you out.

I dont know why.

the gift of a friend

ILY womans :)

This one was another one I had to capture.

Dont ask me why, I was touched.

Rach,this made me cried.

And then I read your post below,

I cried even more :')

Sad/Happy tears.

Surrounded by uncertainties Im so unsure of

please speak softly for they will hear us

and they'll find out why we dont trust them

#nowplaying Conspiracy- Paramore

where on this earth i could be

this song brings back memories :)

that specific night.

But the beating of our hearts

I believe in nothing

not in peace and not in war

I believe in nothing

but the truth in who we are.

#nowplaying 100 Suns-30 Seconds To Mars

untitled.

LMAO thats a really long post.

We will still be friends forever

2008

ribbon boy :D

monkeys I tell you :)

2010

Looking back at that 2008 picture, wow did I realized Sonia's hair was curly back then? Well its all straight now. Then again, Sofea's hair pretty short compared to now :D and Bernie had Alice Cullen's hair cut (when she styles it up). A lot changed in the past few years. Memories being built and thrown away. The good and the bad. I've never really appreciated what I had. I know I am thankful but did I really take a good look at what I have? It was only today, outside of school that I realized. Saying goodbye to Rachelle. I dont know, I have that feeling of 'dont leave me'. It was a struggle for me. At that little moment. We were all there. Part of me knew that Rach realized too. Said goodbye to everyone. That was our last goodbye. Im sure you're probably thinking WTH? You're still seeing them. Well what I meant was, we wont get to say goodbye like this anymore because then next year our last day would be the last day of SPM. We'd probably be jumping up and down since SPM's over. But think about it. Its our last time of really being together. High school memories. On the way home, I thought to myself. WOW my friends. We've gone through a lot together. A lot. I never really did realized all of this.

Earlier today, I had a talk with Nat,Bee and Rach. Our future. What's it gonna be like? Heck I dont know. All that college,job and money talk. I didnt like the reality check. Well again it made me realized.

Sofea was always the one I'd do all the crazy things with. Laughed and cried. Hell yeah, we cried. She was always the one I had the heart to heart talk with. We would sing in class even when teacher's teaching. We'd laugh for no absolute reason and people would think we're crazy. She was my potato :)

Rachelle was always the one that I'd talk to when it comes to things about life or you know, those talks that make you think. Owh and when she laughs? Like really laugh? She would go high pitch:) She's the one where you'd give her a pencil and paper, she'll just doodle things on them and they'd make you go whooa. She's the strong one.

Esther was always the one who has the loudest voice in the house. She always had stories to tell us all :] hahah. But among all? She's the one who's really serious about her studies. She was also the one who bullies me a lot :( hahah I remember when she used to be obsessed with Nick Jonas then she ditched him for Arthur Pendragon. Esther, Esther.

Bernie. I remember the first time I met her. Moral Form 2. I was like cool I've never met anyone with a name like yours. LOL then she was like ':( its a name meant for guys'. Well anyways we hit it off when we found out we were both into Amazing Race Asia. Lots of laughter I tell you. Bernie's always random. Seriously. HAHA. She would get excited over anything. The sight of Bill Kaulitz on tv would literally give her fitz, really.

Then theres Natasha. I remember std6 we gave each other gifts and I got her this dog magnet. Cute. I hope you still have it :) Nat's always the one who gives me reality checks. Thank Nat, for that I mean. She's always the one doing well in her studies. She laughs a lot but check this out, she laughs with no sound. *silent laughs* HAHAH.

Sonia. I was in the same class with her in Form 1. We promised each other that we would work hard and go to a higher class. We did and thats how we met everyone else at 14. I go to her for advice sometimes. She's the one always there with me during choir. This and that. Girl, 2011's our year for everyone. Well the seniors proud and we'll make ourselves proud. I used to call her Sony PSP :) hah those were the days.

Fatema. My owh my. I met her this year, 2010. She's the BURPER and she only drinks air anggur. LOL. She's a real joker I tell you. HAHA things she would say. tsk tsk tsk. Owh and she's very touchy touchy. LMAO. I hate her for that. hahha. Fatema fatema, class would be very quiet without you.

Elysia :) She's the blur one. Halfway we're all talking and she'll be like 'what?' and she's always he onet singing chinese songs. She's the only one among all of us who can speak chinese fluently. AMAZING. haha. She reads a lot. Well not those study books but the ones with vampires in them :p at times she can be really awwh :) and she's very thoughtful of people.

Loh :) she's my twin. She's like the mother of the whole clan. She's the one telling me Fran dont do that, its not good. Fran dont eat that, its not good for you. She's pretty good on the creative side too. Owh and she's got talent in choreographing. She was there when I need her.

They were all there :') in ways you may never expect but yeah . They were there, even if they didnt noticed.

I know somehow that 2011 will be different. I know it will be.

Well here goes for that year.

laughing moments

I remember trying to do that hand thingy because

Rachelle and Sofea were doing it.

I couldnt do it.

but hey in the end

I did :)

.

cause baby you're a firework

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Another Katy Perry that Im addicted to for now.

I remember being so awwh towards Teenage Dream :)

I still am.

For now its Fireworks :p

shut up and let me see your jazz hands

Drugs

Give me drugs
Give me drugs
I don't need it
But I'll sell
Whatcha got
Take the cash
And I'll keep it
Eight legs on the wall
Hit the gas
Kill them all
And we crawl and we crawl and we crawl!
You be my detonator!

Words
Gimme love
Gimme love
I don't need it
But I take what I want from your heart
And I keep it in a bag
In a box
Put an 'x' on the floor
Give me more
Give me more
Give me more!
Shut up and sing it with me!

She's the crazy one, besides me though.

I know sometimes I can get annoying :) Always am at home. I bet no one outside except my family and real close friends know how crazy I can get XD hahahha.
Anyways, I never expect much from you. You've done the best you can. Thursday's a pretty big day for you, well at this point of life for you I suppose. I dont expect much of you because I know what it can do to individuals. I know.
And I know you wont see this blogpost? Because LOL you dont read blogs? No you dont.
Here I am hoping for the results you deserve.
I know I may not be the best sister? Im just hoping I did my part. Being there for you. Eventhough you dont like it. Heck yeah, you dont like it. Hahah. No matter what you say back, Im always here.
I'll probably die earlier than you. LOL I'll leave my blog link somewhere for you to find. And when you do? I hope you see this post.
Goodluck Felicia.

TeamJumba :')

Im a greenboxer :)
We sang some pretty good ones.
It was all Paramore for Sofea and I.
Guns & Roses for Nat and Bernie.
All Time Low for Rach.

Went yay the moment Teenage Dream started.
It ended and we went awwww man.
*REPEAT REPEAT* Then we did.

Sang The Only Exception :)


owh and today was TeamJumba's last leg on The Amazing Race :'(
the look on Kevin's face when Phil told them they were out. He just stood there , just like that. IDC its #TeamJumbaForever

Grey's :D

I watched Grey's just now. I forgot how it used to affect me. LOL. At one point I got inspired to become a doctor. Just like them. Then that dream died off. Anyways somehow at the end of every episode, theres that part where you realize something and somehow it applies to living life. The way I watch Grey's?? Hmm. Me watched the episode where Izzie survived cancer. Then her remembering that George wasnt there anymore. Her bestfriend.
Its not just any kind of friendship. Its that friendship that's probably so rare. Idk how to explain la. LOL. Its just that kind of friendship. And to lose a friend like that? Wow. The way I see it, people have lots of friends or the other way round? But its really hard to find The Friend. Dont get me wrong, I just dont know how to explain that kind of friendship.
Its a beautiful friendship. Its just a rare kind.

I am what I am because of the choices I make

Not many of us see things the way I see it.
The way I see it, only a few understand what Im trying to say. Not about what Im blogging about but about the way how people think and see things from their point of view.

Thinking about what I said just now, I feel like an ass right now and for now theres no 'but then again' because I know I did the exact thing that other person did to me once. I told myself I'd never be like that. Today, I did what you did. I feel like an ass -.-

For being the way I am, theres always a good thing to it but then again theres also the side effect.

addicted to For The First Time :D

Dont make conclusions based on what I say.

Because you dont even understand what I mean.

Sometimes people say things like that but at times they mean it the other way round.

Stop comparing me with what you get to do.

The more you try to make it like a joke? uh nevermine.

Stop saying you understand because the way I see it? You dont.

You dont know everything about me.

I dont tell you everything.

But you think I do.

Its funny how I tell them something but they turn it all the way round.

I'll fade away then.

#nowplaying For The First Time-The Script

#nowplaying The End Where I begin- The Script

You forgot your flash drive ! :D

Happy Deepavali :)
went out with Rachelle,Sofea,Bernie and Natasha today. Haha we were so bored,we went up to the roof and sat in a corner and eat popcorn for lunch. Walked here and there. Then went to Kim's place. The Big Bang Theory. hahahah Nat :D
You forgot your flash drive. You forgot your flash drive.
Haha. Then it was Kaalai's a few houses away.
Ate so much I had stomach ache :(
wheee :D

if perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same

#nowplaying Just The Way You Are-Bruno Mars

Im so addicted to this song right now :)

little keyboards

I remember doing this on a piece of A4 paper :)

TRUE THAT.

of paint and brushes

This is what happens when you've got nothing to do and you see a paintbrush and paint just on top of that shelf of yours.

HERO HEROINE

:)

you caught me off guard

now Im running and screaming

Imma keep finding more :)

They're gonna keep me occupied.

Im so happy right now.

:)

The Blue Danube :)

Woke up this morning with my flu all gone.

LOL I look into the mirror?

and my eyes were red and all swollen.

LOL

I wonder why.

Anyways played the piano again :)

IDK why suddenly I cant stop opening that big green book of songs.

Did some retarded painting today.

Watched 2012.

Read Nicholas Sparks's.

Im so bored :)

LOL

I'll go cycling tomorrow then.

Anyways I dont know what I just blog because

right now Im feeling very blur.

and my eyes are still red -.-